A Word Called Hope

Nurses Disabilities

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I try to post positive changes in my disability status and received such great news from my doctor today I thought I'd share with all in this site.

It took 3 weeks to get an appointment with my pain management doctor to receive trigger injections. I mentioned that to her and she explained how they are going through staffing changes blah,blah,blah,

I did get 3 trigger injections into the belly of three posterior muscles on and near the rhomboids, and that 2nd one hurt!!!! The muscle actually jumped severly.

10 weeks ago I joined our local gym to help build strength and endurance to enable me to finish the LPN to RN Bridge program. My muscles are stretching! The doctor made the coment that I looked"ridiousley(sp) well. I told her , that sounds almost like an insult. ...ridiculously well??? Hmmmmm.

She further added it's motivation, and hope that I cling to every day. I may never be able to nurse again depending on my respiratory response, but I am looking at healing the whole body, soul and mind. Beleive me 2 years ago, I would have been so angry crying and telling everyone to go to hell (sorry), that I surprised myself today. I am not one to take compliments well, I realize I may never work again, I know I envy those who are working nurses, and I pray that I will be given the chance again.

So my point is that I wish hope for all of us. "The disabled nurses". Hope to continue if we are working in a different capacity or just trying to make it through the day or even an hour.

I can't keep it in, it's out there and I HOPE that in some way everyone can benefit somehow for the better with hope in their heart.

Peace Out!

Sharona

Specializes in ICU, SDU, OR, RR, Ortho, Hospice RN.

Hold on to your Nursing Dreams Sharona, you have the determination to succeed. Remember nursing is so diverse that you can find areas that are not hands on. You will win this I am certain of. :)

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I told her, I'm not sure I can do it. Still 2 more weeks on antibiotic and SOB even with short walks!

Don't you have a certain period of time when you can w/d from school without losing $ or receiving a failure? I ended up almost graduated (a different degree from nursing) but due to illness had to stop. The policy at school gave you a percentage of $ back, and no failure grade, after a certain period of time.

My point being, what if this was a one-day-at-a-time thing? And, is it possible to just take 1-2 classes at a time?

Jus' wunnerin' ...

{{{{{{{{{Sharona}}}}}]]

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Well Zoe, that was my plan. One class at a time as last Fall I went into resp distress. And now with this stupid flare-up,now ilness I will miss Spring sign up and my doctor has suggested to "quit" at this point and in continueing forward. More than the withdrawal,lost money, my Pride and Hope went out the window. So at the moment, life just sucks.

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Well Zoe, that was my plan. One class at a time as last Fall I went into resp distress. And now with this stupid flare-up,now ilness I will miss Spring sign up and my doctor has suggested to "quit" at this point and in continueing forward. More than the withdrawal,lost money, my Pride and Hope went out the window. So at the moment, life just sucks.

Very upside down smile here Sharona, I'm sorry :(

I do know that God has a plan for your life - and you are so precious - He is using you already. I'm kinda waiting for the next directional myself. {{{{{{{{{Sharona}}}}}}}}}

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Sharona,I got the job,it's so great!Yesterday we fed about 45 people a free lunch,so heartwarming for many it was the only Thanksgiving they will have this year.My eyes filled up quite a few times during the lunch,one family Mom and three kids,the youngest just about a year,sat together and held hands while she blessed the table before eating.Makes me realize that as long as you have family you have everything.On Thanksgiving morning we will go in early(about 5AM)and pack meals for about 300 senior citizens who live alone and otherwise wouldn't get a meal.During normal(not Thanksgiving)weeks we do a smaller lunch on Monday and then on the other days go and do AIDS education in hospitals and rehabs.I still work every other weekend at the NH,can't give up nursing but I'm not strong enough to do it fulltime.

This was just sent to me,check it out it really speaks to me anyway,hope others like it as much as I do

Happy Thanksgiving to everyone

Terry

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Well Zoe, that was my plan. One class at a time as last Fall I went into resp distress. And now with this stupid flare-up,now ilness I will miss Spring sign up and my doctor has suggested to "quit" at this point and in continueing forward. More than the withdrawal,lost money, my Pride and Hope went out the window. So at the moment, life just sucks.

life sucks right now, because you're feeling weak in body and spirit.

do not make any decisions while feeling this way, sharona.

and i agree w/zoe, about taking 1-2 classes at a time.

anything more, and i think you'll be setting yourself up for more disappointment.

set goals that will inspire further hope and determination.

and finally, do not let anyone tell you, that you should quit.

perhaps, take it slower, but still move forward.

do not lose sight of your dreams.

continue to reach for the sky, one star at a time.

missing you, and wishing you peace, my friend.

leslie

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Where did it go?

As they say us baby boomers wil be taking care of our parents.

So that is where I am at at the moment, and struggling very hard.

It's so sad. I remember the good memories and don't think about the bad ones.

Right now, hope is getting through the hour and it hurts and you become vulnerable.

Vulnerable to critism, a disagrrement, a place you can't understand.

I was to do some parish nursing BP's last Saturday after mass, and could not do it.

A simple task becomes a gigantic fear, of what?

Hope will never leave my heart. It brings me back to who I truly am.

If anything, I've learned time heals and hope awaits.

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Specializes in geriatrics,med/surg,vents.

Oh Sharona,I'm so sorry that you are going through this,I hope and pray that things will get better for you soon.Wish I was there to give you a hug and a nice warm cup of tea anyway here's a cyber hug for you {{{{hug}}}}

Terry

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Thanks HCT,

PTSD triggered, and I 'm not used to triggers or what they are capable of. I know now!

When you are hurting, everything hurts, every word, thought, accusation, disagreement, humility, and even things I'd normally throw over my shoulder are taken like a shot to the heart. Whether the hurtful feeling I felt was intentional or not. It was a very personal attack that I felt. But I'm not saying they were personal attacks, ya know?

Gentle humor feels like an attack. All in the name of I am feeling hurt and not handling it. But am I supposed to keep composed (re: PTSD)?

Time will heal the hurt. Understanding someone's composure takes compassion. Forgiveness is hard to understand.

I certainly believe in divine intervention and know that what is meant to be will be.

Thanks for your kind words......a hug back at ya

((((((((Sharona))))))):redbeathe

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A simple task becomes a gigantic fear, of what?

I can relate, haven't had those days in quite a while but BOY OH BOY I could hardly leave my house even to do things I really wanted to do sometimes!

Kudos to you for wanting to serve - just keep trying! You are not beaten, just a little bent (ok, thinking of the image of the tree bending in the wind but it came out wrong lol)

Whether the hurtful feeling I felt was intentional or not. It was a very personal attack that I felt. But I'm not saying they were personal attacks, ya know?

I totally understand (((((((((( Sharona ))))))) xoxox

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Thanks Zoe,

We are all human and vulnerable, whether ii is good for the soul or not.

Too me a bent tree can be mended by support to it's trunk..........hmmmmmm

Still thinking of all the folks at the interested in prayer thread. Please let them know.

Thanks,

((((Sharona))))):redbeathe

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Thanks Zoe,

We are all human and vulnerable, whether ii is good for the soul or not.

Too me a bent tree can be mended by support to it's trunk..........hmmmmmm

Still thinking of all the folks at the interested in prayer thread. Please let them know.

Thanks,

((((Sharona))))):redbeathe

That's right! Strong :)

I posted in the thread for you!

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