A Word Called Hope

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I try to post positive changes in my disability status and received such great news from my doctor today I thought I'd share with all in this site.

It took 3 weeks to get an appointment with my pain management doctor to receive trigger injections. I mentioned that to her and she explained how they are going through staffing changes blah,blah,blah,

I did get 3 trigger injections into the belly of three posterior muscles on and near the rhomboids, and that 2nd one hurt!!!! The muscle actually jumped severly.

10 weeks ago I joined our local gym to help build strength and endurance to enable me to finish the LPN to RN Bridge program. My muscles are stretching! The doctor made the coment that I looked"ridiousley(sp) well. I told her , that sounds almost like an insult. ...ridiculously well??? Hmmmmm.

She further added it's motivation, and hope that I cling to every day. I may never be able to nurse again depending on my respiratory response, but I am looking at healing the whole body, soul and mind. Beleive me 2 years ago, I would have been so angry crying and telling everyone to go to hell (sorry), that I surprised myself today. I am not one to take compliments well, I realize I may never work again, I know I envy those who are working nurses, and I pray that I will be given the chance again.

So my point is that I wish hope for all of us. "The disabled nurses". Hope to continue if we are working in a different capacity or just trying to make it through the day or even an hour.

I can't keep it in, it's out there and I HOPE that in some way everyone can benefit somehow for the better with hope in their heart.

Peace Out!

Sharona

Specializes in IM/Critical Care/Cardiology.

90 Minutes in Heaven by Don Piper is an excellent read. I could really relate to the huge interval of feelings between hope to hopelessness.

So frusrating when you can't do the job you've done for so long, and he talks about his emotions concerning this. Almost identical to what I have gone through and felt from the illness to how I react to different issues today.

Just thought I'd share that, Happy Easter!:D

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90 Minutes in Heaven by Don Piper is an excellent read. I could really relate to the huge interval of feelings between hope to hopelessness.

So frusrating when you can't do the job you've done for so long, and he talks about his emotions concerning this. Almost identical to what I have gone through and felt from the illness to how I react to different issues today.

Just thought I'd share that, Happy Easter!:D

Hi Darlin! Happy happy Joy Joy!

Nice to see you - I was just browsing around in the disabilities forum last nite wondering where everybody was...

xo

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Hi Darlin! Happy happy Joy Joy!

Nice to see you - I was just browsing around in the disabilities forum last nite wondering where everybody was...

xo

Hi Zoeeeeeeeeeeeeey!!!!!!!!!!

I'm still reading posts, but better than that is hearing from you. How are you doing?

Please give my HAPPY EASTER greeting to the prayer thread friends. I miss ya' all!

Sharona:redbeathe::nurse:

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533 thank you's to 425 hmmmmm,

Hope still counts! Happy Easter All.

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533 thank you's to 425 hmmmmm,

Hope still counts! Happy Easter All.

What a dyslexic post. I was trying to write two passages for the New Season in Christ right around the corner, I apologize that I made an inarticulate statement and one that makes no sense. The comment intended was Thanks be to Christ.:uhoh3:

Sharona

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Hi Zoeeeeeeeeeeeeey!!!!!!!!!!

I'm still reading posts, but better than that is hearing from you. How are you doing?

Please give my HAPPY EASTER greeting to the prayer thread friends. I miss ya' all!

Sharona:redbeathe::nurse:

Hi honey, off and on struggling w/ depression - not HORRID depression but enough so i don't really want to get out of bed and be sociable and stuff - so it is WORK - sigh...

Just got over this little bit of flu too and that made it even harder. I still have residual pain in my upper arms (stinging and aching!), shoulders, neck... weak ... ugh. Would rather stay home than be working but I KNOW working is better for me.

I did get my permanent and total disability on my student loans. That is a mixed blessing - I am happy that $21,000 in debt is now off my shoulders - but to see in print that I am truly disabled (more so than what social security requires...) it kinda feels strange. Sad.

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What a dyslexic post. I was trying to write two passages for the New Season in Christ right around the corner, I apologize that I made an inarticulate statement and one that makes no sense. The comment intended was Thanks be to Christ.:uhoh3:

Sharona

Whenever you write a post and want to change it, just go back to it, click "edit", fix it, click "save", and no one will be the wiser - hopefully (chuckle)

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Hi honey, off and on struggling w/ depression - not HORRID depression but enough so i don't really want to get out of bed and be sociable and stuff - so it is WORK - sigh...

Just got over this little bit of flu too and that made it even harder. I still have residual pain in my upper arms (stinging and aching!), shoulders, neck... weak ... ugh. Would rather stay home than be working but I KNOW working is better for me.

I did get my permanent and total disability on my student loans. That is a mixed blessing - I am happy that $21,000 in debt is now off my shoulders - but to see in print that I am truly disabled (more so than what social security requires...) it kinda feels strange. Sad.

I know it must be hard to to ever expect those kinds of blessings. I'm in the works of one of those now. And so it is hope. I really hope you can read that book, it talks alot about the despair you just wrote about and easily related too, from that perspective. At least that's what I took from it.

I too had the influenza 2 weeks ago first time ever. Was worse than the whooping cough. At least I was working undiagnosed w/pertussis as pecular as that sounds.

Still seeing a psychologist concerning my mom's Lung CA and imminent death approaching. (Long story). Everyday is a struggle to feel the acceptance of society in certain areas,(that don't have a clue to the horrible conquest effortly made each day), but then again all you can do (as you keep telling me), coninue with me in all ways and He will give us what we need or the strength to carry on......hopefully.

Hope you are feeling better soon and know how much I miss you and the way you made me laugh my fool head off!

Happy Easter!:twocents:

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I know it must be hard to to ever expect those kinds of blessings. I'm in the works of one of those now. And so it is hope. I really hope you can read that book, it talks alot about the despair you just wrote about and easily related too, from that perspective. At least that's what I took from it.

I too had the influenza 2 weeks ago first time ever. Was worse than the whooping cough. At least I was working undiagnosed w/pertussis as pecular as that sounds.

Still seeing a psychologist concerning my mom's Lung CA and imminent death approaching. (Long story). Everyday is a struggle to feel the acceptance of society in certain areas,(that don't have a clue to the horrible conquest effortly made each day), but then again all you can do (as you keep telling me), coninue with me in all ways and He will give us what we need or the strength to carry on......hopefully.

Hope you are feeling better soon and know how much I miss you and the way you made me laugh my fool head off!

Happy Easter!:twocents:

Thanks for the book recommendation. Happy Easter to you too! I cannot believe it's already here - then again it is early this year.

As to your mom dying, my dad had his bladder removed in Jan for bladder cancer, and the urethra and prostate, he is slowly recuperating but he is not the same man. And knows it too which kills him, he is so used to being active and happy and doing for everybody ELSE. Right now tho he is vacationing in FL (doesn't have to do much, just lay in the sun, sleep, get waited on LOL). Anyway - hard to come to terms w/ him not being around esp since there were so many years we hardly even SPOKE. God did a marvelous healing of that relationship.

Plus he doesn't realy lean on FAITH, he relies on himself, and self is starting to fall apart. Sigh...

Anyway - nice talkin w/ ya - yeah I can still be funny - :lol2:

xo

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Zoey,

Totally hear you about the disassociation with your dad before you relationship healed.

Mom and I have had a tough go of it all my life, but I guess you keep your hopes up that things will turn around someday.

Someday............

Sharona

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Zoey,

Totally hear you about the disassociation with your dad before you relationship healed.

Mom and I have had a tough go of it all my life, but I guess you keep your hopes up that things will turn around someday.

Someday............

Sharona

I don't know if you read it elsewhere but my anxiety is starting to plague me a bit - I was supposed to go on a plane to see my son yesterday but couldn't get on the plane :( I've had a bit of depression too but I don't know which came first. I wonder if it has to do with my having gotten that "total disability" for my school loan ... ugh...

(((((((((( Sharona ))))))))) I could be closer to my mom but she doesn't really initiate anymore - I could go visit her more, or call her more, but I guess I am still protecting myself!

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I believe the battles we are forced to deal with concerning our disabled health that disrupts our career for starters, then infiltrates into other areas of our lives is a huge impact in how we associate ourselves as "being a failure, or feeling guilty, or geez I had to enact the paperwork for self-preservation.

I can honestly understand how that creeping depression comes back.

For me it especially hits daily becauseI'm not in the presence of patients and nursing. But todayI am going for a Reasearch Job or Volunteer. Tomorrow I may feel what in the world.

Add support systems: failing family suppport....( for your sanity I too know where I've placed my boundaries with mine). I hate it, but I don't tolerate abuse. Period.

I'm so sorry for this rough patch Zoey, Honey you did what YOU had to do for survival. I really honestly understand but I have a hard time ACCEPTING that this has happened to me and maybe that is how you are feeling it too. I don't know.

I will forever keep you in my prayers, and I love to share posts with you. HOPE they keep coming!

(((((((((((((Sharona))))))))))))))))))))))):redpinkhe

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