A Word Called Hope

Nurses Disabilities

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I try to post positive changes in my disability status and received such great news from my doctor today I thought I'd share with all in this site.

It took 3 weeks to get an appointment with my pain management doctor to receive trigger injections. I mentioned that to her and she explained how they are going through staffing changes blah,blah,blah,

I did get 3 trigger injections into the belly of three posterior muscles on and near the rhomboids, and that 2nd one hurt!!!! The muscle actually jumped severly.

10 weeks ago I joined our local gym to help build strength and endurance to enable me to finish the LPN to RN Bridge program. My muscles are stretching! The doctor made the coment that I looked"ridiousley(sp) well. I told her , that sounds almost like an insult. ...ridiculously well??? Hmmmmm.

She further added it's motivation, and hope that I cling to every day. I may never be able to nurse again depending on my respiratory response, but I am looking at healing the whole body, soul and mind. Beleive me 2 years ago, I would have been so angry crying and telling everyone to go to hell (sorry), that I surprised myself today. I am not one to take compliments well, I realize I may never work again, I know I envy those who are working nurses, and I pray that I will be given the chance again.

So my point is that I wish hope for all of us. "The disabled nurses". Hope to continue if we are working in a different capacity or just trying to make it through the day or even an hour.

I can't keep it in, it's out there and I HOPE that in some way everyone can benefit somehow for the better with hope in their heart.

Peace Out!

Sharona

Specializes in Alzheimer's, Geriatrics, Chem. Dep..
I believe the battles we are forced to deal with concerning our disabled health that disrupts our career for starters, then infiltrates into other areas of our lives is a huge impact in how we associate ourselves as "being a failure, or feeling guilty, or geez I had to enact the paperwork for self-preservation.

I can honestly understand how that creeping depression comes back.

For me it especially hits daily becauseI'm not in the presence of patients and nursing. But todayI am going for a Reasearch Job or Volunteer. Tomorrow I may feel what in the world.

Add support systems: failing family suppport....( for your sanity I too know where I've placed my boundaries with mine). I hate it, but I don't tolerate abuse. Period.

I'm so sorry for this rough patch Zoey, Honey you did what YOU had to do for survival. I really honestly understand but I have a hard time ACCEPTING that this has happened to me and maybe that is how you are feeling it too. I don't know.

I will forever keep you in my prayers, and I love to share posts with you. HOPE they keep coming!

(((((((((((((Sharona))))))))))))))))))))))):redpinkhe

Thank you Sharona, you understand me - it really helps!

I feel much better this week - taking better care of myself, and really I made the best decision I could have made - I feel good about it now. Even tho yes, I hate it!!! at the same time ...

but... acceptance does make me a lot less miserable, and apprehensive. So, onward!!

So tell me more about the research/volunteer? I am looking to do more too. That fine balance of what I can do versus totally humiliating myself ROFL!

xo

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Thank you Sharona, you understand me - it really helps!

I feel much better this week - taking better care of myself, and really I made the best decision I could have made - I feel good about it now. Even tho yes, I hate it!!! at the same time ...

but... acceptance does make me a lot less miserable, and apprehensive. So, onward!!

So tell me more about the research/volunteer? I am looking to do more too. That fine balance of what I can do versus totally humiliating myself ROFL!

xo

I went to my GI specialist and brought a resume as they have a nice research dept. I had to have a test scheduled at the hospital and the scheduler saw I had a resume and offered to intraoffice it. I thought hmmmmm should I or shoudn't I. I said great, thank you. She gave me a card with a number to f/u with and low and behold in 4 days the corporate office called me. We spoke of my disability, my attributes before the disability and what I have to offer now and what I am working towards goal- wise. They are to call me this week. Thank you Jesus!!!!:D

I'll keep you posted. I bought Marie Shriver's book:Who do I want to be, she was on Oprah. It's a great little book, easy to read, definetly relatable and I'll start from there. Baby steps, remember goofball? You're quote to me Ha! Miss ya and I hope you are feeling and doing better.

((((((Sharona))))))):smokin:

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Specializes in Alzheimer's, Geriatrics, Chem. Dep..
I went to my GI specialist and brought a resume as they have a nice research dept. I had to have a test scheduled at the hospital and the scheduler saw I had a resume and offered to intraoffice it. I thought hmmmmm should I or shoudn't I. I said great, thank you. She gave me a card with a number to f/u with and low and behold in 4 days the corporate office called me. We spoke of my disability, my attributes before the disability and what I have to offer now and what I am working towards goal- wise. They are to call me this week. Thank you Jesus!!!!:D

I'll keep you posted. I bought Marie Shriver's book:Who do I want to be, she was on Oprah. It's a great little book, easy to read, definetly relatable and I'll start from there. Baby steps, remember goofball? You're quote to me Ha! Miss ya and I hope you are feeling and doing better.

((((((Sharona))))))):smokin:

You are pretty amazing GF!

And "Who do you think you are" (not "Who do you want to be") calling me GOOFBALL!!! ha ha ha! :lol2:

Hey good luck and God's blessings to you! xo

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