please don't be discouraged. things will happen. i went through virginias monitoring program. my problem was narcs, not alcohol. i work in virginia beach ltc, but live in nc. what i found in seeking employment was it depends more on the person doing the interviewing than on the specific job or company. really, a woman administrator in a nursing home in virginia called me. i had interviewed for every possible job in ltc, had experience but was repeatedly rejected at first interview, or more painful made a second or third interview and then was rejected. i cried and felt worthless. i continued to work the program, and finally after two years, while working cleaning at a hotel for $7.10 an hour, this woman offered me a job doing mds. i went on an antabuse kind of drug every day, cant remember the name right now. the administrator had to witness me take the pill and sign the paper every day. i don't know what in the world made her believe in me to the point that she offered me a job. to shorten the story, she moved to a nursing home in va beach and i moved with her. i live in nc, and commute to va. i have talked to several nursing homes here in nc, so much closer to home, and they look at me like i have needles hanging from my arms. even with four years now of spotless references, they are afraid to offer me anything. there were days that i felt hopeless, i just kept working the program and applying. i know one story doesn't necessarily give you hope. i've beenthere. but i have almost eight years clean, finished the va program and have an unrestricted license. still, like i said can't get any nc job offers, and no interviews in virginia for that matter. but, higher power, mine and yours has a plan for us. i really think that if you continue to have the desire, the need to work as a nurse, and keep clean, that something will open up for you. i'm not sure if nc has a harder program or it's harder to find employment. i saw a quote today that said "faith makes all things possible, not easy". please don't lose hope.