i believe it's time to call it quits...... - page 2

obviously no one is going to hire a nurse in IPN with a 5 year contract and with a criminal background. it's just not going to happen. I've only been in IPN for 6 months, but the financial toil... Read More

  1. by   Junebug59
    thanks so much for responding Lisa and sharing your story. so funny, I was telling my sister yesterday that I thought I may go back to school for a psychology degree and go into substance abuse counseling. I think that may be my path too. before I reported to the board, I had already submitted my app to our local university here and had all my transcripts transferred and was accepted. had student loans ready to apply. I decided to try and keep my license so I wouldn't have any regrets later on. but, I am beginning to think it's a lost cause. we are so behind the 8 ball with our stipulations, criminal backgrounds, etc. like you said, so many people are out there applying for these nursing jobs that don't have the baggage we have. so, it's looking more and more feasible to go back to school. plus, I think I need the distraction and the boost in self confidence that it would give me. thanks again for the encouragement and I pray you have success and peace!
  2. by   Meriwhen
    It's a very tough market for even the "cream of the crop" to get hired into. So that mean the chances for the rest of us aren't too hot either.

    I keep suggesting this because there's something to it...look into psych as it's one of the more recovery-friendly specialties. And there are areas of psych with little to no access to controlled substances. But before you do that, make sure you have a good handle on your own recovery. I'd say wait until you have at least one year under your belt...but you need to decide what is best for you and your recovery.

    Keep putting your sobriety first; the rest will fall into place. Wish I could tell you that it'd all fall into place tomorrow...but we know I can't :/
  3. by   elprup
    Sending you positive light.
  4. by   VivaLasViejas
    You have my sympathies, virgojd! I don't have any DUIs or a criminal record, but that was only through the grace of God......I'm a recovering alcoholic (21 yrs. sobriety) and diagnosed bipolar who's also 54 and finding it nearly impossible to find steady work. I'm employed on a very part-time basis in a SNF as an admissions/QA nurse, which is fine because I couldn't handle a 40-hour week now if my life depended on it. But I do need at least 24 hours/week, and I've been contemplating leaving nursing for a while because being in management burned me out and I can't take the fast pace or the constant interruptions of direct patient care.

    Trouble is, I can't figure out what else I'd rather do, so I just stay with my on-call job and hope for the best. I'll be 55 in January and then I can qualify for help finding another line of work, but if I can, I'd just as soon stay with what I know, even though I'm very limited in what I can do in this field.

    You may want to look into your nearest Vocational Rehab agency for this assistance. You don't have to be 55 to be eligible, but they'll have additional programs for you when you get there. They work exclusively with people who have disabilities of one kind or another; I don't know if your ETOH history qualifies you as having a disability, but alcoholism is a DSM diagnosis and certainly has affected your life in a significant way, so it's worth checking into.

    Whatever you do, though, just DON'T DRINK---if you don't have your sobriety, you've got nothing. Best of luck to you.
  5. by   Junebug59
    thanks Meriwhen, vivalasviejas and elprup for responding and the encouragement. I have a 5 year contract with no narc key restriction. my stipulations are no working for hospice, agency or over 40 hrs a week. I think psych is also a no no. i'll have to check.
    Last edit by Junebug59 on Sep 21, '13 : Reason: misspell
  6. by   Z71RN
    Quote from virgojd
    obviously no one is going to hire a nurse in IPN with a 5 year contract and with a criminal background. it's just not going to happen. I've only been in IPN for 6 months, but the financial toil and the degradation of being a failure with a criminal background is too much to bear. I am wasting my time, what little money I make working minimum wage and the small amount of dignity I have left. this November will be 5 years since I worked as a nurse, so I'm sure I'll be told I need to do refresher course which costs money and needless to say, what hospital is going to let me do clinicals with a criminal past. it seems every where I turn another door is slammed in my face. i'm 54 yo and may as well say bye to my nursing career. I had a good run and was a great nurse. I never diverted/ stole from my patients or employers. My problem was self medicating for depression and receiving dui's. hell, no one is going to hire me......

    i have no idea what i'm going to do. hopefully Mcdonald's may hire me. i hate my life.
    virgojd, I for one know you still have something to offer as a nurse. when I first started as a brand new rn which was not very long ago, I was sort of mentored by a nurse that had went through the recovery program. he has since moved across country but the time and knowledge he shared me reflects in what I do everyday as a nurse. I thank god that he took the time for my many questions and his assistance with all the different issues that new nurses have. but he didn't stop there, as I progressed into a more competent nurse and his time in our er was growing slim he shared his stories about his personnel struggles and demons which I think about everyday. now, I have reached a certain level of rank in my er where I am placed in charge of new nurses that come to be employed here, and I find myself telling his stories and trying to give the same helping nudge that he gave me on many occasions in the past.
  7. by   Junebug59
    thanks for sharing that z71rn! I just got an email from a friend who is going thru the same thing I am only he is 3 years ahead of me in the program. he just found a job!! he has a couple of dui's on his background. I have a flicker of hope! thanks so much for the encouragement. just got to get out of this funk i'm in. I love this site because of nurses such as yourself who take the time to help another nurse who is struggling instead of making them feel even more worthless. <3
  8. by   MsPebbles
    (((virgojd))) - I just wanted to say congratulations on your sobriety and I'm so proud of you!!! I can only imagine how difficult it is, especially at a time when you feel all doors are closing in your face as you seek employment. But please don't give up!

    I'm very lucky in that I tried alcohol a few times in my life and decided early on that I hated the taste, so I never drink. But that doesn't mean I haven't had my challenges in life...and I always try to remember that "this too shall pass." And it always does. Call me an optimist, but I believe that our life problems always have a way of working themselves out somehow, but only if you don't give up on yourself.

    I have faith that you will find a nursing position again (just like your friend) and I look forward to reading about your good news here on AN!
  9. by   Junebug59
    thank you mspebbles for those encouraging words. I am going to try and stick it out as long as the finances allow. it's just so hard when you don't have much support. i'm single, no kids. no one in my family really can help. I may soon be homeless. but, like you said, things have a way sometimes. The good Lord willing, maybe He will see it in His plans for me. have an awesome day!
  10. by   marcos9999
    Whatever the problem is we don't know what is up ahead for us. Good, bad, we just don't know. Just stay with it and be positive and you might find the unexpected knock on your door. We just never know how things will work out. They say we have to go to hell until we get to heaven.
  11. by   Junebug59
    very true Marcos..... I'm going to try and stick it out as long as I can. my friend who just got a job after 3 years of this same journey gave me some hope! he gave me the news last night! so happy for him!! thanks for the encouragement Marcos!
    Last edit by Junebug59 on Sep 22, '13 : Reason: added
  12. by   RNOTODAY
    Im so sorry your going through this. I dont have a criminal past, but i DO have a problem with pain pills. and all the stories here confirm and validate my decision to NEVER EVER seek help professionally for my addiction its simply career suicide. I dont divert, never have, i have a RX for my meds. . ill deal with it on my own..... but i digress... i really do feel for you, and I hope you can find a way through all this BS
  13. by   Junebug59
    I agree RNOTODAY. I would have NEVER self reported if I didn't have a criminal background. I had to because they would have found out and it's better if you do it instead of getting caught. do what you have to do to get your life on track. this is hell!!

    every time I get a negative response from an application I submitted, it chips away at my self confidence. I got a few this morning in my email box. I am seriously considering dropping this crap and going back to school. I can't take this much longer....