Eval on Tuesday, getting nervous

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Hi everyone,

A little update first. I had an appt in Tampa, but thanks to the recommendations of others I have made an appointment in Gainesville. I've been clean for 2 weeks, and because my use was inconsistent and I was only taking something when I couldn't handle my own back pain I was using infrequently, so I didn't experience withdrawal. So as I prepare for my eval on Tuesday I am faced with the same anxiety's that has been nagging at me all along, inpatient therapy. I feel like I've spent so much time reading and everything I come across says everyone is recommended for inpatient, whether it's needed or not. How can this be? I just don't get it. I'm grasping at straws here, but has anyone heard of anyone in Florida not getting inpatient? And if it takes weeks to get your recommendation then that's just more clean time, so how can they say you need intensive inpatient when you can demonstrate you're capable of functioning as a clean adult?

Uuuugh, I am going to make myself crazy by Tueday 😞

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Take a deep breath. Generally speaking, the level of treatment recommended is based upon your evaluation. You may *need* inpatient, or maybe you only *need* outpatient. It's not necessarily the amount of clean time that determines the level of care you need. There are a whole shlew of behavioral issues that come with addiction/alcohol issues, and clean time doesn't undo those issues.

I can safely say that in my experience inpatient would have been great, I could have done 30 days inpatient vs the 9 weeks of outpatient I ended up doing plus another year of weekly sessions for aftercare. It's not necessarily easier either way. I can also say that the treatment was SO beneficial to my recovery and I wouldn't undo a thing.

Try to go with the flow. I know it all seems overwhelming, but it will become the new normal. It gets easier.

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I happened on your thread while I was stressing about my upcoming oncology follow-up on Tuesday. I know it's not the same thing, and I don't claim to know anything at all about recovery. I just wanted to say that I'm sending good thoughts your way and I hope it turns out exactly the way you need it to.

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Take a deep breath. Generally speaking, the level of treatment recommended is based upon your evaluation. You may *need* inpatient, or maybe you only *need* outpatient. It's not necessarily the amount of clean time that determines the level of care you need. There are a whole shlew of behavioral issues that come with addiction/alcohol issues, and clean time doesn't undo those issues.

I can safely say that in my experience inpatient would have been great, I could have done 30 days inpatient vs the 9 weeks of outpatient I ended up doing plus another year of weekly sessions for aftercare. It's not necessarily easier either way. I can also say that the treatment was SO beneficial to my recovery and I wouldn't undo a thing.

Try to go with the flow. I know it all seems overwhelming, but it will become the new normal. It gets easier.

Thank you, I haven't really thought about how intense out patient would be so that's something I need to keep in mind. I'm just anxious about the outcome, I am ready to get started and get on with what I need to do. I know it's like that for everyone, I just need to remember that it is just part of the process and to take a deep breath and take it in stride. I know it gets better, I am so ready for that.

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I happened on your thread while I was stressing about my upcoming oncology follow-up on Tuesday. I know it's not the same thing, and I don't claim to know anything at all about recovery. I just wanted to say that I'm sending good thoughts your way and I hope it turns out exactly the way you need it to.

Ruby, I am thinking positive thoughts for you. Thank you for the kind words and thoughts. I will keep you in my prayers and pray that you receive the news you're hoping for.

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Breathe. It will be fine. Really, it will í ½í±

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Thank you! My appt is at 2, I'll post afterwards. Happy thoughts! And thank you for the continued support!!

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Hope your eval went well.

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Any update sent positive vibes

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Hope your eval went well.

Thank you! I am going to post below about how it went.

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Any update sent positive vibes

Thank you! I actually feel a huge amount of relief now, it went a lot better than I was expecting. The physician was very kind, very encouraging, but didn't sugar coat things. They took a hair sample, blood sample and UDS and said those results will be back by Friday most likely. They said they will call my employer and ask them how my work performance has been and if they had any concerns about my practice, but they said that since they chose to retain me as an employee that speaks volumes because they never see that. They said the hospital system I work for typical calls the police and has the employee arrested and reports then immediately so they felt very positive about my ability to overcome this event. They said they aren't allowed to discuss recommendations per IPN but not to worry myself as much as I have been. I was very humble and honest, and they could see that. They did ask a few times if I've ever tried Suboxone and he informed the medical student that was present that I'd be an ideal candidate for a medication I'd never heard of before, so I'm wondering if they will be recommending that. I kind of got the impression that he felt that my pain and depression are tied together so if we can manage one the other will fix itself, and I completely agree. So now I just wait until they send their recommendations to IPN. He did say their will be a form of tx and monitoring but couldn't say what exactly. So, in 10-14 days I will know the outcome, but I have been able to breath a huge sigh of relief and am ready to move forward with whatever they feel is best.

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It sounds like they will probably recommend an outpatient thing at most plus the contract. As far as the contract itself, i don't know. Those tend to lean towards the boilerplate, but that is just my opinion. I think you got a much fairer, realistic shake than if you had gone to Tampa.

Just keep remembering to breathe and know that the hardest part is over.

Please keep us all posted.

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