Confessions Of A Nurse Who Compulsively Eats

Compulsive eating disorder, also known as binge eating disorder, is a problem for millions of sufferers. However, this affliction lingers in the shadow of less prevalent eating disorders such as anorexia and bulimia nervosa. The purpose of this article is to shed some light on compulsive eating disorder. Nurses Announcements Archive Article

I've previously mentioned that an individual cannot begin to address a problem without first admitting that he or she has one. Well, my name is TheCommuter and I am a long-time compulsive eater. There it is!

Compulsive eating disorder, also referred to as binge eating disorder, entails periods in which the afflicted person consumes large quantities of food without regard to feelings of physical hunger or fullness. Also, compulsive eaters greatly outnumber bulimics and anorexics in the United States. According to the Binge Eating Disorder Association (2011), this problem affects more than eight million men and women and accounts for three times the number of those diagnosed with anorexia and bulimia together.

Professionals and experts have long argued that compulsive eating patterns have a strong emotional component.

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Thompson (2011) contends that compulsive overeating is characterized by uncontrollable eating and consequent weight gain. Compulsive overeaters use food as a way to cope with stress, emotional conflicts and daily problems. The food can block out feelings and emotions. Compulsive overeaters usually feel out of control and are aware their eating patterns are abnormal. Like bulimics, compulsive overeaters do recognize they have a problem.
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Signs and symptoms of compulsive eating:
  • Binge eating
  • Fear of not being able to stop eating voluntarily
  • Depression
  • Self-deprecating thoughts following binges
  • Withdrawing from activities because of embarrassment about weight
  • Going on many different diets
  • Eating little in public, while maintaining a high weight
  • Believing they will be a better person when thin
  • Feelings about self based on weight
  • Social and professional failures attributed to weight
  • Feeling tormented by eating habits
  • Weight is focus of life

Compulsive Eating .........Causes, Signs and Symptoms, Complications, Getting Help

Multiple health problems may happen as the result of long-standing compulsive eating disorder, including putting on weight that leads to overweight and obesity, joint pain, high blood pressure, sleep apnea, type 2 diabetes, digestive issues, cardiac disease, and a whole host of other ailments. If left uncontrolled, the compulsive overeater might endure an untimely death.

I first noticed that I had a distorted relationship with food during my middle childhood years. My father was verbally abusive toward me, especially when he was drunk, and I numbed the emotional pain with food. After all, eating felt much better than bursting into tears on a daily basis after hearing my father tell me that I was stupid or that he would put his foot "up my ***." In addition, my mother started anesthetizing her emotional issues in her early twenties by overeating. She still compulsively overeats to this very day, and has the morbidly obese body habitus, type 2 diabetes, hypertension, and stage 3 chronic kidney disease to show for it.

Having never learned to properly deal with emotions, I spent my middle childhood and adolescence as a slightly overweight girl. I never quite became obese because I would go on a strict diet as soon as the weight scale would creep upward. Even so, I always regained the pounds plus more since my warped eating habits always returned with full force.

One day, at age 26, I got onto the scale and was horrified to see that I weighed 216 pounds, which is hefty on a short 5'1" frame. I was now obese! While compulsively eating, I would always tell myself that this would be my last unhealthy meal while promising to make drastic changes with diet and exercise tomorrow. To keep a long story short, I changed my eating habits by attempting to separate emotion from food, and ended up losing enough pounds to achieve a near-normal weight.

I am 31 years old and will always have issues with food. In fact, I still binge on occasion after a rough shift at work because it feels comforting. I wish I could seek professional help for this problem and the rest of my underlying emotional issues, but I am uninsured at this time. Millions of people are compulsive eaters, the majority of whom are keenly aware that something is very wrong. Overeaters Anonymous (www.oa.org) is a free resource. With the proper help, compulsive eating disorder can be conquered.

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Specializes in LTC, Management, MDS Nurse, Rehab.

This took courage, both to explore and write, as well as to post. Kudos to you, who knows how many ppl you are helping by posting this?

I am not entirely certain i am an official binge eater, as it only occurred late in my life, in my 50s, and this thread sort of gives me impression, it's more a lifelong habit.

But, whether or not i would 'officially' fit under that umbrella, most of the descriptors seem to fit me NOW, and all the effects are now worsened, by my post-menopausal metabolism. (for real, menopause, for me, was like that scene in Avatar movie, where he wakes up in an entirely new and foreign body to live in).

but, at any rate, i sure do identify with the self-deprecating feelings/overeating cycle that can occur, when extra weight is on board. I put on 30 to 40 lbs after my ovaries died. I have a floppy valves, and that was enough weight to exacerbate my arrhythmias, and i was headed to becoming a cardiac cripple.

I've studied quite a bit, learned quite a bit about what works, what doesn't. I found the documentary series "Weight of The Nation" to be informative, and lines of that film still come to me often, as i stand in front of the fridge. That film interviewed many experts as well as ppl who have lost 100s of pounds.....

a fairly unforgettable film for anyone interested in this topic of weight control.

I've got about half of that 30 or 40 lbs of overweight back off now, already my heart is calming down a bit again,

and it helped me a lot to join "MyFitnessPal.com"

which is free website. It took me a few days to get the hang of using that site. (anyone who does join that site, i recommend you stay OUT of "The Forums" as it is mostly inane chatter there,

BUT, some of the "subgroups" there, if you search for them, like "Heart problem group" or "women over 50", etc etc, some of these 'subgroups' are very helpful)

One has to log all food into their "food diary" there,

an activity which might appeal to anyone with any form of OCD. Even logging my food intake, just that, in and of itself,

was a very vital first step for me to begin to return towards health.

That website doesn't endorse any particular diet, but instead, focuses on a lifestyle change. ONe remark someone on MyFitnessPal wrote, which stuck with me, is,

//"I've tried every diet in the book, and most of the time, i did lose weight. But, it always came right back. Always. But here i am learning how to live...how to eat correctly, forever and ever. NOt a "diet", but, instead, a new way to approach food. When we "diet" we learn nothing, and after we've lost the weight, we immediately return to our previous bad habits that got us heavy in the first place. that is why i gain it all back, again, and again.

But here, i am learning how to eat for the rest of my life."//

her words

made sense to me, so i'm trying this now, just slowly RE-learning how to eat appropriately all over again, and trying to develop better eating habits again, and learning how to substitute some of my favorite snacks, and RElearning all over again, how to crave an apple instead of a bag of chips. I am learning things, i can feel myself changing inside about what i eat.

it IS a process, near as i can tell so far.

Specializes in Case mgmt., rehab, (CRRN), LTC & psych.
But, whether or not i would 'officially' fit under that umbrella, most of the descriptors seem to fit me NOW, and all the effects are now worsened, by my post-menopausal metabolism. (for real, menopause, for me, was like that scene in Avatar movie, where he wakes up in an entirely new and foreign body to live in).
I can totally relate to the frustrations involved with a slow metabolism. I have been hypothyroid since late 2005 and have difficulty losing weight. I can easily gain, but losing even one pound of weight requires an extraordinary effort.

I was hyperthyroid secondary to Graves Disease from '98 to '05 and could lose weight with virtually no effort. Now, my metabolism has slowed almost to a crawl.

I really want to thank the commuter, as well as all other posters, for having the courage to admit this and share your stories with us. One of the most important aspects of improving ourselves is having a support network, wherever we may find it. Im especially relieved to know i am NOT alone. I think its interesting to note that ANYONE can be dealing with issues such as these. We have been so successful in one aspect of our lives- our career. Just getting through nursing school is a huge accomplishment. I would hope people would realize that these problems can affect anyone. Not always someone who is perceived to be "lazy", or uncaring of ourselves.

I always found it hard to try to not be a hypocrit during the few teaching moments ive had so far (im a new nurse). How can i teach someone whats healthy, and important for them to do, when i myself am not doing it.

Thanks guys for being so open in such a public way. I wish you all the most success in living with these daily issues, as well as finding happiness and acceptance within yourself. Good luck!

I never had this problem until after i became a nurse. Doesn't matter if I switch facilities. It's all the same stuff with evil co-workers! If it weren't for some of the attitudes at work I would never bInge eat!!!

Specializes in OB/GYN/Neonatal/Office/Geriatric.

I don't know if I would be fat if I weren't a nurse. Probably, but the amount of stress that nurses are subject to makes it a lot harder to get under control, I think (MHO, of course). When I was off work for nearly 2 years I lost a significant amount of weight. Now that I returned to nursing I have surpassed my highest weight. I am so ready to get off this roller coaster. Thank you, Commuter for bringing into the light what many of us experience.

Specializes in pediatrics; PICU; NICU.

Thank you so much for posting this article! I just went through 6 weeks of intensive outpatient treatment for food & shopping addictions. I am also a recovering alcoholic with 24 years sobriety. I have been a binge eater for almost 20 years but it wasn't until I got on the scale a few months ago & discovered I'd gained 60+ lbs. in 1year that I admitted it's a problem. Fortunately, there is an addiction recovery place close to my home that deals with "process addictions" (food, spending,gambling, sex) as well as chemical addictions. I can't even believe the insight I gained & how much I learned about myself in the past 6 weeks. I will now be starting individual therapy with a counselor who specializes in process addictions as well as attending OA & Debtors Anonymous meetings. For whatever reason, it was much harder for me to admit these addictions than it was for me to admit being an alcoholic but I will always be grateful that I was able to find the appropriate help when I needed it.