I know nurses are supposed to be non judgemental, but how do I not judge??
I was doing a sterile task for a pt and w/o even realizing it according to her i contaminated my sterile field. now she doesn't say to me "oh i think you contaminated that." she SCREAMS at the top of her lungs "YOU CONTAMINATED YOUR STERILE FIELD NOW I'M GOING TO GO SEPTIC AND DIE IT'LL BE ALL YOUR FAULT!!!!" Now I hadn't even touched this woman yet! The procedure I was doing was something she did at home all the time but now she's in the hospital and can't?! if she was truly sick i'd understand but she was admitted as a precaution b/c her husband was in for something highly contagious. Her tests had all come back negative. She and I had argued before we started because I wanted her to clean herself up a little bit and she wanted me to do it! She's independent from home! why should I give this healthy woman a bedbath?? Now where i begin to be the naughty judgemental nurse is, this womans hospital room REEKS of cat urine!! apparently her home is the same and she won't be allowed to go back. As she's yelling at me i'm thinking. "why is she so concerned about me breaking sterility if she does this in a home infested w/ cat feces and urine?!?"
I feel so awful for thinking that...how do you keep from being judgemental? It's so hard sometimes, but she deserves my best!! I'm beating myself up because I made a mistake and for thinking so badly of this woman. I'd never knowingly break sterility and put a patient at risk! I threw everything away and asked another nurse to do the procedure for me b/c I was upset and I didn't want her to accuse me of anything!