Hi, I am a new nurse working my first job in a hospital. (Volunteer career change at 46) I am on a monitored care unit with up to six patients. I feel like I am belittled by one co worker or another every time I go to work. I have been publicly reprimanded 3 times, by 3 different nurses, for things I didn't know I had to do. I've been laughed at and get the eye rolling by another nurse whenever I have to give her morning report. Been told " I can read" when going over the patient's history. There is so much more but this would be way to long. I'm so afraid to give report in the morning because I don't know what's going to be said to me. I try to prepare with labs, history and test results, but it never seems to be good enough. I'm still learning(I'm just starting my 2nd month on my own)and I'll get "did you do this? Did you do that?" And it's always something new and I've never been told I need to do. Then I can tell that the day nurse is totally disgusted with me for not knowing I had to do it. I always say "I'll do it now", but they say "forget it, I'll do it." I do ask questions of my team mates when I get something new, but they are busy too, and it seems like there is something left out. I am a very strong person but this experience has left me feeling like a failure. I would never treat anyone the way I've been treated. Thankfully I've had great experiences with my patient's and they are the reason I'm still there.