Hi, my heart goes out to you for I also failed the nclex on the first try. The reason, I should have rescheduled it due to me having mouth surgery the day before. So on October 17, 2010, I went into the test still high off loratab. I got 265. So, I knew that I was having variability. When I walked out, I knew that I failed. So, I decided to continue to study the same way that I studied the first time but minus the surgery. I did well on test in nursing school and scored in the 98% on the Hesi. What I would encourage you to do first is to make a calendar. The Prentice Hall Nursing comprehensive Reviews and rationales book has a calendar in it based on 45 days of prep time. It is awesome and the book is as well. I went through this entire book cover to cover. I also have the Saunders 4th edition Questions and Answer Review by Linda Anne Silvestri. This book is amazing and the CD that comes with it has all of the type of nclex question formats on there. It is definitely tailored like the ideal test. I would encourage you to have this book on hand it has over 4000 plus questions in it alone. I also have the Saunders 4th edition comprehensive review book by Linda Silvestri. This book is ideal for giving you the basics and a review of what you may have forgotten. I divided the sections in the book up by content and studied just like I did when I was in school. So I used all of these three books for the first 30days of study and focused on the areas that I was weak in; being ob and peds. Then the last 15 days of study, I made a list of things to know like labs, infection control gear, burn diagram, Acronyms to remember, and pharm. The last 7 days of study I put all books away and just studied my notes. I focused more on peds calculations and adult mcgs/kgs/min. Then on the day before the test I put all books away. I took the day to rest my mind. I was anxious because this was the second time that I would take the test. Mind you, I could not sleep this night for some reason. So on January 21, 2011, I went into the test anxious, but confident. I prayed before starting and 6hrs later I was done. I had 265 questions again. When I made it to question 199, I had a talk with myself; I knew that the test was not going to cut off and that the next 65 questions meant a pass or fail for me. I focused really hard on the next 65. I went home nervous and crying. An hour later I tried the Pearson vue trick and got the pop up. The first time when I failed it took me straight to the credit card page. I knew that this was a good sign but I was not truly convinced. So, I waited the next 48hrs and paid the $7.95 for the score report and the score report said PASS!!! I still was not convinced and the next morning the FBON had my license number on there with my name! I WAS RELIEVED. I wrote all of this to tell you that it can be done and to not be discouraged. You can inbox me and I will send you my study guide sheets. I am praying for you. Let me know if you have any other questions.