Never give up on yourself! The depression will pass but you have to take the initiative and tell yourself that you are going to do it - don't let fear conquer you. You have our support on this forum and many others have been in your shoes, so dust yourself off, jump back on the horse and study. There are many resources on here especially the random facts and the infection control link.... change the game plan and study as if it was your first time. Best of luck, you CAN do it!