I am pleased to announce that as of today, September 9, 2014, I AM OFFICIALLY A REGISTERED NURSE. After BILLIONS OF NCLEX questions, several reviews, after endless turn downs for nclex study, after much weight gain, Micheal Kors and Louis Vuitton bags underneath my eyes I can say my hard work paid off.
Can I just have a second to testify about my Jesus reeeaalll quick !
Before graduating our professors instruct us to take our NCLEX within 60 days of graduating. Otherwise, our chances for passing NCLEX on the first try are less than likely. I graduated college on May 4, 2014. I must admit that I grew a little worried because as time flew by I grew further and further away from the 60 day mark. It also didnt help that more than half my class had failed on the first attempt. However, I have learned that my God is NOT A GOD OF STATISTICS. You give God a statistic He will laugh and give you a success story. I took my NCLEX , yesterday for the first time which translates into 126 days after graduation.
As I sat to take my test I kept reminding myself that God was with me and that He had not given me a spirit of fear but of power and of love and of a strong mind and that I could do all things through Him. However, I left the test center feeling a little..no..VERY defeated because I felt like my entire exam was in CHINESE. I literally got like 75 SATA. 4 ECG. TONS of priority. A few ordered response. A couple hot spots. More than half of the test was on things that I had never heard of.
I literally came home, after the test, and cried myself to sleep. I was so depressed because I was sure that I had failed. My mom told me not to worry, God had my back. I just kept saying "Mom, I literally did all that I could do. I will literally die if I have to take it again. I wouldn't know what to do different. I'm so embarrassed, I told a good handful of people to pray for me. How could I face them. All the shows I missed. I've missed so much of Bachelor in Paradise and I'm sure Big Brother is over. All the sacrifices I made" I just went on and on. In my head, I just kept saying really God after all the fasting and praying that I did. How could you let me fail.
The wait to see your nursing license, as we all know, is 48hrs. However, I just checked and lo and behold my name and license number was listed. I had to double click and refresh a couple of times to make sure that it was not another person who just happened to have my name. I thought maybe just maybe that is was someone else . Surely, it was truly me for my school was listed.
I say all this to say. You may be faced with something, all the odds may seem like they are not in your favor but you MUST still trust God. I would have taken my Nclex earlier had the New Jersey Board of Nursing not lost my documents. However, I probably would have failed. God's timing is ALWAYS PERFECT. You just have to trust Him. You may want to do something but statistically it seems impossible, TRUST HIM. God has got your back. I was not the brightest nursing cookie in the bunch but when you trust God He will make you the head and not the tail. God says ask and you will receive. Stop looking at others and look to God, He is where both, your strength and your blessing lie. I dont know what it feels like to actually know that you failed, officially, but unofficially it's not a good feeling. However, I dont care if you have failed the NCLEX 6 times trust in God. HAVE HOPE. He can turn it around. In HIM you will ALWAYS have the victory !!
