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I work night shift, and i will have to say, some nights its a breeze, if you were able to convince , fight or bribe your body to please rest because you need to work that night, but wow, MOST of the other nights are dreadful. After working night shift for 8 months now you will think the body will be used to sleeping during the day automatically but I guess with my 23 years spent sleeping during the night like a normal person, this 24th (one) year of my life, isnt enough for my body to adjust. perhaps 23 more years spent during night shift may even things out and things can get better. Yea no way,
On to what this shift does:
I am a zombie to the point of no return. Like, I have forgotten what day of the week it is, and have to check my calendar numerously. Im 24. now forgetful? -___-
I have showed up to work a very few times when It was my night off. It was actually funny because I went in there with my so called "Im excited to work, let get going!" enthused face, my nurse manager was like, what are you doing here? you work tonight? I respond? "It' s monday right? "yea it is, but your off honey"-___- Face switched, "OMG im going to bed, goodnight to you all.
My shins, my legs, my arms, my back, my neck, my feet, my eyebrows, my ears, my fingernails, my nose, my my hair, everything hurts. Not all due to lifting but this night shift is doing things to my body. Once athletic 4 year MVP tennis player, works out full of energy, I now drag myself to do these things.
My affect is so incredibly DULL! Im just dull, zombie, no emotion in my voice, just bland.
Im tired all the time, I eat and feel worse cause now I have to work hard at the gym, which the energy is lacking.
Im 24 feeling about 56, how I came up with 56 i dont know, but I feel it.
I have a new nephew, 2 y.o and I am that energetic aunt, who can chase him all around till HE got tired, but I cant give him my all because Im all burnout from just 8 months. WOW.
I know what I need to do, and that is get a day shift position, not even evenings, DAY! My orientation was great it was day shift, despite the amount of work and things going on, but I felt normal within myself so I was able to do it well. now with nights, I don't do much at all, my skills arent utilized enough, and i feel abnormal.
I texted my sister randomly one morning, and just said "Im slowly dying" and it was no joke, I feel like my health is deteriorating, and I have NO heatlh issues Jesus my Lord blesses me. but I feel SO UNHEALTHY the thought of tis shift causes me to create health issues for myself. But trully I feel like I am slowly dying and thats the sad truth. Sadness, dullness, stressed, worry, feeling physically detached from my body, i tell ya, im slowly dying. its too much.
