I have been struggling for awhile but I have never reached the point that I am at now...I am literally feeling sick to my stomach, having headaches and other physical symptoms because I am scheduled to go back to work tomorrow. I work PRN on a unit that is fairly new and specialized. I absolutely hate it - and that is not how I am. Though the unit is new, the hospital is not and the hospital has struggled w/its reputation in the community...I thought (and did not listen to others!) that because of some changes this would be a good place to work..wrong. The promises of FT work, how the unit would be run etc. have not materialzed since the unit changed last fall. PRN consists of a few days/month. We have been struggling because of this - I, along w/others, keep getting told once the census goes up FT will be available. The census is up, but nothing. The manager, though nice, is unresponsive and to be honest, seems to leave early a lot of time..The person who runs HR is a beast - to everyone so it's not personal but it's a stress nonetheless. We are not allowed to leave the unit during our shift - period. So if we don't bring something to eat - too bad. There is no microwave so hot meals are out. I think the manager is uncomfortable in her new role and w/the hospital overall as well (she has been there about 8-9 months). I have been applying other places and am not in a position to just not work but the closer my next shift gets the more stressed/anxious and physically ill I am getting. I've not been thrilled w/other jobs in the past, but that is part of nursing sometimes...but this place is different for me. I just wondered if anyone else had ever had such a strong reaction to a job...to the point you really aren't sure you can even make yourself go to work.