Hey, kid. In this business you have to get the emotion out some way. Ether you let it out by crying or you let it builds up inside of you until you reach for the bottle, or take the pills or you get so burned out you 'take that long swim',(suicide). Never apologize for being human. For as that old French guy Edmond Rostand, who wrote 'Cyrano de Bergerac', said "There is nothing more sublime then tears...Nothing.