(Remember) Walking In the Sand - page 2
"I Had A Life---But My Job Ate It" proclaims the bumper sticker I just put on our 13-year-old Ford. I don't usually adorn my vehicles with stickers---I've always thought they were sort of tacky---but... Read More
2Apr 20, '13 by VivaLasViejas, ASN, RN GuideYes, my doc is after me to consider a job change to something a little less frenetic, a little less stressful. I'm not sure where in nursing this job exists, but I can imagine I'll want to look around some before I decide whether or not to leave.
A friend of mine who's an associate department manager in our local psych facility wants me to come work with her (oh, the irony of a bipolar nurse working on a behavioral health unit!) and I could probably land the position in no time. But my heart is with my current position, and I actually want to stay there and see if I can't figure out a way to live with it. I've never stuck with the same job longer than 2 1/2 years, and I just passed that mark last week......so a fair amount of pride is riding on this.
But I won't let myself get to this point again. The episode scared the living daylights out of me, and I'm not eager to experience another. If I get even CLOSE to losing it again, I'm out of there. In the meantime, however, I'm going to keep my eyes---and my options---open!
1Apr 20, '13 by Liddle NoodnikQuote from VivaLasViejasNope you're not. (((Viva))) My turn, next week, althooo my ocean is miles apart from your ocean lolwhen it's over I am NOT going to wish I'd spent more time at work, thinking about work, or stressing about work.
1Apr 21, '13 by Mulanquote "Yes, my doc is after me to consider a job change to something a little less frenetic, a little less stressful. I'm not sure where in nursing this job exists" quote
I don't think it does exist in nursing. (Unless maybe one has some advanced degree/education/qualification.)
1Apr 21, '13 by FranEMTnurse, LPN, EMT-IThis is one phenominally written article Marla. It has a wealth of wisdom in it. I hope you win.
1Apr 24, '13 by judybsnI left a job once for panic attacks (related to menopause) and I've never looked back. I love my current job. No further panic attacks!
0Apr 25, '13 by VivaLasViejas, ASN, RN GuideQuote from judybsnWell, I've been through that wonderful part of womanhood for a number of years (thank God!) so I can't even blame this on "the change". My doctor is recommending that I switch to a lower-stress job, although where that's to be found is anybody's guess. I'm going back next week, so we'll see if I really can continue or not; I don't suppose I can go through the rest of my career on anxiolytics, but for now I need them. I tried going without for a couple of days and started getting wound up even at home, so I'm not 100% back to normal yet, but it's either go back to work and be stressed about work, or stay at home and be stressed about not making any money.I left a job once for panic attacks (related to menopause) and I've never looked back. I love my current job. No further panic attacks!
1Apr 25, '13 by judybsnThe woman who runs our facility is on antianxiolytics all the time, even when she had a lower stress job. Anxiety is just something she lives with, but she does a fabulous job in spite of it.
0Apr 28, '13 by VivaLasViejas, ASN, RN GuideQuote from judybsnI wish I were confident enough in my abilities to claim the same, but this episode has shaken me up pretty badly and I'm very much aware of my vulnerability now that all the cards will be on the table. My doctor wasn't sure that I should go back to work even now, 2 1/2 weeks later, but I told him that I'm more anxious about losing pay every day that I'm out, and since we switched to a stronger antianxiety med I figured I should be OK after the first day or so.The woman who runs our facility is on antianxiolytics all the time, even when she had a lower stress job. Anxiety is just something she lives with, but she does a fabulous job in spite of it.
So he wrote a work-release letter for me and outlined the accommodations he was recommending that I be given for my bipolar disorder and anxiety. Now those words are on paper in stark black and white, and now everyone from the business office manager to the top brass will know something really is wrong with me. That is not comforting. But at least there is documentation proving that I'm being treated and I'm doing what I can to get back to my usual level of functioning, so in the event that I'm termed I can at least draw unemployment benefits, to say nothing of calling on the ADA to back me up.
I'm just sorry to even have to think about these angles. It all sounds so cutthroat, and I'm not that way at all. If ANY of this were my fault, I'd just take whatever karma dishes out and slink off into the sunset; but I didn't ask to be given this challenge. All I wanted was to stay at this job until the end of my career and give 100% every day, even if all I had to give was 100% of 75%. Maybe I still can. And while I'm still nervous about going in on Monday, I'm actually looking forward to seeing my residents again and using the new systems put in place while I was away.
1Apr 28, '13 by Liddle NoodnikYou are making tremendous inroads for those of us with bipolar, and giving a lot of us hope and courage. Well, speakin for myself of course