Quote from PankaD89
Does anyone else constantly have this battle with themselves? Some days I leave work feeling like I was a good nurse who made a difference but then other days I leave feeling like a complete failure. I've been working PRN in LTC since August & still feel completely lost somedays. I've been tempted to take a couple of FT positions thinking things would get easier that way but that would really mess up my school schedule...just trying my best to make a difference & constantly feeling like I'm falling short.
I don't feel like a 'bad' nurse and I'm not one to take work home with me. Once I leave the building? Out of sight; out of mind.
It's more like I've never felt so proud of my work and so 'let down' about 'the state of things' simultaneously.
I feel like my best really isn't good enough. I don't know.
There are too many of them and too few of us. Too much to be done with too little time to do it in.
I'm always worried that I'm going to forget to do something or somethng's going to bite me in the butt down the line because I did something improperly and didn't know otherwise(I'm talking about paperwork).
You run all shift long.
I worked on New Years eve and I didn't eat. Neither did the other nurse.
We just clocked out on our lunch-break and kept working. The census has dropped and we're supposed to be doing hour lunches. Well - I was busy doing insulin/BS and passing 6 a meds...and clocked out 15 min late.
But...do you know what makes me angry about all of this? It's not the fact that I didn't get to eat. When I work 8's, I usualy don't (imo) have time to eat.
It's the fact that, in our next meeting, we'll once again have to sit around while management goes on and on about 'time-theft' and how they're going to take it out of our checks and blah, blah, blah. It's the fact that I'll have to answer for my late punch outs as if I'm some unscrupulous person...when I came 10 minutes before shift and stayed 20 minutes after the end of my shift. The other nurse stayed longer. Waiting for our relief. Scrambling to do paperwork that was sprung on me last minute since neither one us had ever done night shift.
OFF the clock!
We're not stealing anything. It is they who steal from us!
I didn't even bother doing a time-sheet correction form. I'm keeping my damned extra 15 minutes.
Take THAT, 'powers that be'! LOL