I decided that I needed a good place to vent my feelings.
I'm in NUR 101 and we started with a class of 100 we are now down to 72. I feel this insane pressure on my shoulders because to pass NUR 101 we need an 80 average. Right now I have a 78 and we still have two tests left and a twenty percent final.
A lot has happened this semester which contributed to my stress. I have Schizotypal personality disorder and the stress of this program along with constant pulling from my parents of; "If you fail Nursing school I will kill you because I spent all this money." has tripled my anxiety along with the preexisting anxiety that comes from STPD. I feel like I am constantly on edge with my grade status even though I've gone to several instructors whom tell me repeatedly "You will be okay." Another event that stabbed me was when one of my close friends during our third test of the semester stood up walked to the front of the class, threw down his paper and exclaimed he quit. Three others did the same after he did the action. That scared me as well as learning that three of my friends are so low when it comes to grades that no matter what they do they can't pass. I haven't had a complete breakdown yet.
I lack in book work and make up completely for it in clinical practice and being more hands on has become a complete curse so far. "Thinking like a nurse" is difficult. I need help so I went to one of the course "repeaters" who previously failed is back in the class. She did provide help by giving me some helpful advice but for the extreme anxiety I have she suggests going to the Doctor for some medications. I don't want to go down that route.
I try to set aside two hours a day for study and I attend a study group who couldn't believe that I did as bad as I did on our most recent exam ( A 75) when I could be in my group and completely give correct answers. I need some help and if anyone has any I will greatly accept and implement it. Please, I need it.