I'm not sure whether I'm asking for advice or just venting, though it is probably the latter.
I have just started my second semester of nursing school
, and am still learning a lot of basic things. This semester I was assigned to nephrology. Don't get me wrong, it is the area that I wanted, figuring since it is such a difficult area that it would be a good idea to get it out of the way early before I learn the more complicated procedures. Now I am regretting it.
Last Friday we all got our clinical assignments and rundown, and my clinical site is apparently known as "the widow-maker." Every other clinical group was told, "Don't worry so much about clinicals, the first week or so is just spent getting used to the site and getting to know people." They all pretty much got a 5 minute explanation and were sent home. My group? Not so much...
My clinical group got a 2 hour lecture, and a folder full of homework to be completed over the weekend. Our clinical instructor, the most intimidating and critical instructor in the program no less, basically told us that she expects us to know what we're doing before we get there tomorrow afternoon, and that if we can survive
nephrology we will be able to do anything. She even went as far as to make statements such as, "now I don't want my students to be the ones who kill a patient." She listed so many DO NOT
's that my head is spinning and I can't remember half of what she said.
All I could think of as I completed the homework and did the studying this weekend is, "what the **** did I get myself into!?" This anxiety has made me physically sick, and I haven't been able to sleep well at all this weekend.
Anyone else have any 'I don't think I can do this'