I know my situation doesn't compare because you're a NP and I'm an RN but last October I had my 3rd baby...about 4 months after I got my 1st RN job. I was a stay at home mom for our first 2 kids, so leaving an 8 week old was a HUGE challenge for me. And I really didn't have to leave him with anyone except for my husband because I work nights, so hubby was there to take care of him. But still it was hard and I had him stay with me during the day because he was a good sleeper. Anyway....I was hired for full time but a couple weeks before going back I called my boss and asked if there's any way I could come back part time. She said no, there were no part time positions available. I cried constantly! Finally after much talking with hubby I called my boss a few days before I was due back and again asked if I could come back part time, I got the same response. So I told her if I couldn't come back part time, I couldn't come back right now. I think that kind of threw her for a loop, lol. Oops! She said she'd discuss it with another supervisor. She called me back shortly after and said ok, I had to switch floors, but whatever, I got part time! 3 nights/week is much better then 5 nights! I'm sorry, this is long and drawn out but I just want you to know I know how you feel! It's tough leaving a baby and I really hope you can go back part time. Babies are only babies for so long, it goes by so fast! I cherish the fact that I was able to stay home with my other 2 and had I of known we were going to be surprised with a 3rd, I maybe would've waited to go back to school. I would put your family first! Good luck....I really hope it works out for you.