I'm failing in my final semester of nursing school. 1 pass/fail course, and I'm failing it. (Decided to remove the details of why for protection.)
It's my fault, but it still hurts to be mere weeks from graduation and dealing with this situation. The embarrassment of having to explain to family members and friends. My obvious absence at graduation. Being stuck in my current job with the mediocre pay for another 6 months.
The positives:
- I will get a chance to repeat the course I am failing, and will still be a graduate nurse soon.
- Now I get to graduate in the spring with the warm weather.
- My really good friend, who failed in our third semester, will be with me in the spring class.
- I will have the chance to retake a couple of courses for grade replacement to improve my GPA.
- The material from this semester, which I did struggle with, will be reviewed for me.
- More time to get my life in order, plan my upcoming wedding, and get my anxiety under control.
- I get to enjoy Christmas and the holidays without the threat of NCLEX over my head.
- I get one last college Spring Break, and maybe it will be the best one yet.
This is an obstacle I must overcome to get to my end goal. But it will not be a failure; it's a delay.
Please do not attack me or give me a lecture. I love nursing. I got careless, but I have learned my lesson. I only wish that my preceptor had been more amenable to my learning styles, and one of the things I hope to come out of my experience next semester will be a better fit during my preceptorship.
If you made it this far, thank you for letting me organize my thoughts and gather my emotions before I go into this meeting with my instructor.