I don't mean to rant or anything, but I feel this vibe... that she doesnt' like me. I usually take it, learn, and let it go. But this time... has been sort of obvious she doesn't like me. Everytime she sees me, she looks away. and when we have our conference, she has gone around the table and said great comments ..."excellent" to each one, except me, where she has said "the only thing I am good at is hiding". I took it as a joke. it was awkward. and we only had 3 clinical sessions so far.
First day I was performing a sterile skill, she wasn't supportive...in my opinion, she looked frustrated, sighed, irritable, in my mind I just wanted to do it but found it nerve-wrecking because she wouldn't stop saying things like "no not doing it right, there is a right way to do it, you look like you don't know how to do this, did you do this a long time ago because it looks like it" repeatedly.
Our class, whoever had her, loves her. and I want to too. this is making me nervous going in clinicals today but it hasn't changed I can't shake this feeling that she is watching and waiting for me to mess up. I feel targeted and frustrated I can't think straight so I want to know what is best to do in my situation. I want to talk to her/ change clinical sites with no reason, I need advice
Feb 16, '13
Going through the same experience myself. It's funny, you invest and pay so much for nursing school, and unfortunately you get this kind of experience when others get wonderful experiences. I think of this as a way to grow as a nurse. Unfortunately, in the hospital we will all come across people (patients, nurses, doctors, etc) that we will not get along with at all. At the end of the day, the most important thing is the safety of the patient and what is best for the patient. When you hone in on that, all the drama and crap will just not be important anymore (: My peceptor also gets frustrated with me and it is difficult for me to ask her questions because she makes me nervous and gets mad at me for not knowing. I have a few more weeks in clinical with a new preceptor, so I'm going to go in with a new attitude and make the best of it. Just think, your time with this instructor won't last long. Next time you butt heads with another health care professional or even a patient, you will know how to respond. Just stay respectful and do not argue. When you get mad yourself at the instructor, it is important to keep your professional demeanor. It will be over very soon and after this experience, you will come out stronger and better as a nurse (:
Last edit by pumpkinspice555 on Feb 16, '13