Hey new grads! I just want to give some encourgement from one new grad to another. Here's my story:
As most of you probably already know from my posts, I started off in the ICU right out of nursing school
(bad mistake, but that's another topic). I had several preceptors, some good, some not so good. I was stressed to the max, vomiting before coming to work, crying at home. Then one day, the light bulb went off and I decided enough was enough, ICU was not for me.
So, I asked to be transferred to the ER. Granted, I never had an ER rotation while in nursing school, and never thought the ER would be someplace I would "fit" in. However, when I did my rotation in the ER while in my new grad residency program, I FELL IN LOVE WITH IT! But because I already had agreed to work in the ICU, I didnt want to "rock the boat" and ask for a transfer (mistake number two).
I go to my director in the ICU and asked to be transferred. I told her the ICU was not a place for me at this time in my career and it was a bad mistake going there right out of nursing school. I also explained to her I'm a hands on repitious learner, and I need to do things several times before I become confident. I also explained that I feel very overwhelmed and way over my head and I know what I don't know and I'm not gonna pretend I'm confident when I'm not, because I could potentially hurt someone and lose my license that I worked so hard for.
The director tells me she is "blown away" by my honesty, and she will allow me to transfer. She put a good word in with the ER director and I transfer. Not only did I transfer, I am also working the weekend alt program (Sat and Sun nights, get paid for 3), which is a total blessing.
Fastfoward to a month later, I get an email from the ICU director who wants to do my 6 month evaluation. I was NOT looking forward to this evaluation because I thought it would be "bad". I will have to sit and listen to her tell me how "bad of nurse" I am. To my surprise, I got a satisfactory evaluation, mainly because I was very honest about my orientation and my abilities. I also got high marks in my work ethic, time management, being a team player, and my willingness to learn. The ICU director also wants to hire me back in a year once I get some experience.
Well, I now have no desire to go back to the ICU because I have found my nitche in nursing. For the last 3 days, I have attended a SANE educational course, and I am FASCINATED by the foreniscs! I want to become a SANE nurse and I am putting those wheels in motion to get the ball rolling. I also want to become a certified Foreniscs nurse. I believe being a SANE nurse will allow me to show compassion to those victims and allow me to make a difference in their lives at such a vulnerable and traumatic time. Not only that, I will be helping the community by helping get a rapist off the streets.
Never would I have imagined I wanted to do this type of nursing. I would not have had the opportunity to even know what I wanted to do, had I not experienced what I've gone through. Hang in there new grads! It does get better! I used to want out of nursing, I used to think I made a mistake by going into nursing, but it was not the right type of nursing for me. Hang in there and find your nitche. Don't give up!
From one new grad to another........