I had a talk with my supervisor the other morning and we both agreed that my personality, emotional status, and communicating skills are not a good fit for the unit. It's the only nursing I know how to do and have been in this unit since right after my first semester of nursing school
(I graduated in June 2005). I'm downright scared about making a change but have resigned myself to either working in a less critical ICU (I currently work in a unit that has extremely high acuity patients...the highest in this area) or maybe something like PACU, ER, or Pre-Op. I'm even considering applying at my hubbie's prison...the benefits are great, comes with a pension, no irritating families to deal with, and the inmates truly value you (the RN's are the ONLY staff they value...LOL).
If anyone has suggestions or has been through something similar I would love to hear it! I posted about a week or so back about burnout and I think it's not necessarily burnout but the problem described in the beginning of this post. I went to my first appointment with a psychiatrist because I truly think I either have Adult Attention Deficit Disorder or perhaps a very mild case of bipolar. He put me on Remeron and I start that today. I am hoping to not only get a hold of my emotions (the ability to control them more) and calm myself down (I'm extremely high strung and hyperactive), but complement the meds with a different environment of nursing. It's weird to think I will be leaving the unit that pretty much "gave birth" to the RN in me, but it's for the best, I believe. My supervisor told me that as a person, she loves and adores me....she even went as far as to say I remind her of when she was first starting out in nursing. But I also understand that no matter what she thinks about me personally, she can't have me disrupting the other 130 nurses that work in her unit.
I'm very open to any advice, suggestions, or opinions you may have to throw at me! I'm pretty confused as to where to go. I did my clinical practicum on a medical nephrology floor and I don't ever want to go through that experience again. It was horrible and I didn't enjoy one minute of it. That is one area I want to stay away from....that and anything relating to OB/GYN!!! NO pregnant women or babies for me, please. And I'm not to keen on pediatrics because of the parents. I love the kids and do well with them but the parents drove me nuts when I was doing clinical on that floor.
Melanie = )