Reading your e-mail reminded me of myself two years ago when I was starting the associate degree nursing program that I just graduated from this spring.Students started out with 6 weeks of clinical at the county nursing home to learn the 'bedside'. I had no experience with taking care of bedridden people or those with alzhiemers,whom could be quite difficult. During preconferance I would be in a cold sweat. It was hard at first, but other students with experience as aids helped me out and taught me to not take verbal assalts by pts. personally.By the middle of my second semester at the hospital, I felt comfortable at the bedside,and as school went on, more and more so with each clinical rotation. I ended up doing very well in clincals and classroom, earning three nursing scholarships. So, my point is, don't get yourself all tied up in knots about clinical. If you like people and are dedicated to learning your nursing skills, You will get through that first semester, and clinical will become an exciting learning experience, not a nerve-wracking ordeal. Believe me, if I could do it, anyone can. By the way, I started nsg school as a thirtysomething with 2 kids and supportive husband. Hang tough, its gonna be a bumpy ride, but when its over you'll be a better and more self-confident person-and also a NURSE!