So, I left this crazy floor tele job which was so stressful I'd leave w/ headaches and chest pains and generally go home in a stupor. It was always hectic, the managers were nutso and in general, morale was always bad. however, I absolutely loved the co-workers and their antics and the laughs we always had. We laughed a lot at the crazy patients and all the silly stuff that went on.
Now I'm in this new job and it's nice, quieter, about half the stress and I'm catching on well. The problem is -- I miss that darned old place, the faster pace, even the dysfunctional environment! I miss the codes, the crazy patients, the laughs, the constant stimulation ... I really miss the doctors in a teaching hospital, and the variety of diagnoses, orders, etc.
So, what am I to do? Am I a stress junkie? I HATE the stress, but I miss it. I miss the excitement, using my head, being successful in a bad situation ... I am caught, in limbo, like a fish out of water. I'm dreaming about going back already . .but I know the minute I walk in, there would be some horrid appalling situation I'd be part of and I'd go home stomping and fuming again...
Will I ever find a job w/ balance?? Will I ever want balance??