So I worked my ass off through nursing school. I had no help financially and very little emotional support, I was on my own. I got so depressed and had so much anxiety I honestly thought I was going to end up in the hospital as a patient myself before graduation. I barely had any free time and ran on very little sleep and very little money. Working 30-40 hours a week plus class plus clinical plus paperwork, add in random disasters like the time a girl ran into my car without car insurance and mine only covered someone else's car if I hit them because its all I could afford, etc etc... Needless to say it was the hardest time in my entire life.
The only reason why I even got through it was because I thought there would be light at the end of the tunnel. Thats what I kept telling myself to keep pushing through. Well. There's not.
I have my BSN. I have a Spanish Minor. I have my BLS. I have strong leadership role participation. I have over 2 years experience as a student nurse in an ICU. It is 6 months post graduation. I cannot find a job.
OH, but others in my class whom have ZERO experience as student nurses and whom did not work nearly as hard as I did land their dream job with no problems.
I know I sound bitter, this is why this is called a purposeless rant. I have to work in a very low-scale nursing home to make ends meet for now.
Most days I just feel like crying and find myself wondering why I worked so hard to be able to have a career I genuinely love when it doesn't even make a difference. I am truly happy for my friends who landed their first job quickly but its just frustrating on my end.
