I've been thinking about this all morning, and while I don't really want to post about this, I value everyone's opinion so much, and this freaked me out so severely, I think the benefits will outweigh the risk, so to speak.
I really hope you all don't think I'm a nutjob.
Let me preface this by saying I have a history of dysthymic disorder and major depression and am currently on an SSRI (unlike many psych patients I actually do take my meds).
Anyway, this morning I heard a voice in my head. Not voices, but one single voice. I was laying in bed, not sleeping, I had my big dog in the bed beside me and my little dog (Mercedes the beagle I've been talking about) laying on the floor beside the bed. All of a sudden I heard this gruff, obviously male voice abruptly say "Lady", as if to get my attention.
Now, in this part of the country I regularly greet my female friends with "Hey lady" or something like that. But this sounded as if this person was annoyed with me.
It was SO REAL I sat up and looked around, thinking I might not be alone in my house. I actually looked for the source of this voice, of course I couldn't find it.
So... what do you think?
I remember that schizophrenia usually affects women primarily in their 30s, but I also remember that it has a gradual onset. I hate to think worst case scenario, but that's what I thought of when I realized the voice was in my head.
I still have a good sense of reality vs non-reality, but I have new empathy for psych patients who hear voices.... this has me really freaked the f*ck out.
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I'm not a psych nurse, but if you were slipping into a schizophrenic state, would you realize that hearing voices was unusual? Your reaction to hearing the voice was sure "normal" to me! I have a friend whose son is schizophrenic, and he doesn't think anything is wrong with him.
A few years ago I was doing home health and barely missed being hit head on by my pulling off to the right and into a ditch and just missing a big sign for road construction. While all this was happening, I remember mumbling a few words to God. When I finally came to a stop and everything was okay, I glanced up into the rearview mirror and there sat my mom, smiling! (My mom had passed away about 5 or 6 weeks prior to this incident). She was only there for a brief second but real enough to make me cry. I know she was sent by God to be with me at that moment.
A few years ago I was doing home health and barely missed being hit head on by my pulling off to the right and into a ditch and just missing a big sign for road construction. While all this was happening, I remember mumbling a few words to God. When I finally came to a stop and everything was okay, I glanced up into the rearview mirror and there sat my mom, smiling! (My mom had passed away about 5 or 6 weeks prior to this incident). She was only there for a brief second but real enough to make me cry. I know she was sent by God to be with me at that moment.
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WOW maizey. I love stories like this. They comfort and reassure me that there is help "from the other side"....and that people who tell stories like this are NOT "crazy" ...thanks for sharing that.
I hear all kindsa things if I am on my way to falling asleep... usually monitors alarming, but I have occasionally heard someone call my name. I'm not quite crazy enough to be listed as insane, so I don't worry about it. Now if I heard a voice say Wendy, kill GW, then I would be on the way to the shrink's office PDQ!! You're gonna be just fine Rebecca :) Wendy
Maizey, I had a similar close call when my kids were in the car. I just know some force kept me from hitting the tree as I swerved to avid the T-bone of the truck cutting right in front of my car. I didn't see anyone, but I have NO DOUBT someone was watching over me!!
May need your meds to be adjusted. When my son was on Prozac he saw my brother twice that had been dead for 27 years. I bet he was taken off of that Prozac for good after that. He didn't need it.
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I'm not a psych nurse, but if you were slipping into a schizophrenic state, would you realize that hearing voices was unusual? Your reaction to hearing the voice was sure "normal" to me! I have a friend whose son is schizophrenic, and he doesn't think anything is wrong with him.