I'm definitely not the best mentor (I'm only 1 semester ahead of you in school), but I can share my story of "clinical instructor discrimination:"
First of all, let me start off, that until I was so blessed to work with this particular instructor
, I felt that all my co-students spend WAY too much time complaining about the study load we had (yeah, it's a lot, but what did you expect?), and my PET PEEVE was students that complained that some instructor "had it out for them." It just sounded like such a cop-out. Then, 2nd semester, I was assigned a clinical teacher that:
-kept me (& me alone) after clinical every night for at least an hour
-pulled me (& me alone) aside about 5 times during the 8-week clinical to tell me that she was going to fail me
-questioned whether or not I should even be a nurse
-accused me of cheating with my clinical paperwork (and didn't even acknowledge she was wrong when I proved to her that I hadn't been cheating)
-made me cry countless times in class
-treated every question I had as if it were the stupidest thing she'd ever heard (I once asked what "DJD" stood for and she replied, "Didn't you take skills last semester?")
-faulted me for not turning in assignments on time while giving other students extended deadlines for the exact same assignments
-accused me of "acting" stupid because I was "too lazy" to complete her assignments when I told her that I didn't understand what she wanted
-once ranted and raved about how I didn't know the systemic effects for some eye drops I was to administer, even though she herself had to consult four or five different drug books herself before she could even find what side effects she was so angry I didn't know:smackingf
I could go on and on and on. It was a nightmare. I left clinical crying almost every night.
What made it so much worse was that this instructor was SO RESPECTED by the staff, as well as all the other students. I felt it had
to be me; that she was right - I shouldn't be going into nursing school, that I must be really
stupid if she was accusing me of acting dumber than I really was, etc. I prepared myself for failing her clinical, which would have meant sitting out of the nursing program for an entire year until I was able to retake it again.
Towards the end of this clinical, I finally confided in a couple students about how horribly the teacher thought I was doing and they were SHOCKED. They had no idea I was struggling so much, because they saw nothing wrong with my clinical skills. Judging by the way this woman talked about my clinical performance, I thought for sure that everyone else could see how awful I was doing and how stupid I was, but it just wasn't true. Talked to a couple more students and found out that this instructor, as "wonderful"
as she was, was known for picking out one student with each class and raking them over the coals. It wasn't until that day she accused me of cheating on my clinical assignments and I proved her wrong and she refused to even acknowledge that she'd made a mistake
that I started to realize that she was the problem, not me.
Eventually, after jumping through about ten extra hurdles she set up for me
, this instructor did decide to pass me. More importantly, I've since had two other eight week clinicals with two different instructors and received As in both of them. I sat down with one of these clinical instructors for my evaluation and confided in her about my previous clinical experience and asked her if she saw any of these traits (stupidity, laziness, academic dishonesty, etc.) that my other instructor had felt the need to point out so many times and this instructor said absolutely not and suggested that perhaps there was just something about me that rubbed that other instructor the wrong way.
So, that's my story. Moral being that you can't let one person (even an incredibly respected instructor with decades of experience) question your dedication to nursing or your skills and knowledge. Good luck to you and STICK WITH IT! You'll be amazed at how fast time flies by and how quickly you won't be worrying about instructors, and clinicals, but how in the world you're ever going to pass that state board exam!