New Lessons

So many lessons in so little time. I guess it is true. We are never too old to learn something new, but it may take a little longer. Nurses Announcements Archive Article

New Lessons

I don't know what to do first. Mop the floor, wash the clothes, read the assignments, study math, start something for dinner, or just sit down and say a prayer, and another, and another. Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Happy Holidays, and even a few happy birthdays in between. This is one of the most unusual, mixed up, chaotic, exhilarating, and stressful times of my life. Nursing school and eggnog. Quite a combination. Thank you, Jesus.

In the few short months since starting this highly complex study of healthcare, I have learned more than I ever knew possible about the human body, and this is just the beginning. I think what impresses me the most is that we are all made up of intricately intertwined molecular substances and yet within these material structures mystically resides our intangible spirit. Our personality. Our thoughts, feelings, senses, ideas, memories, preferences, likes and dislikes, and so very much more. Aren't we amazing? I am truly in awe of our distinctly human characteristics. The question remains, though, am I capable of handling this enormous endeavor I have begun to pursue with such fervent angst, fear, and intrigue. I am, after all, only human, and the requirements to complete such a daunting program are at times absolutely overwhelming, to say the least.

But right now, I don't know where to begin. I got in! I was there! I wore the uniform, passed the tests, read the chapters, went to clinical, even met and cared for some real patients! I listened to their heart rates, heard their lung sounds, palpated their abdomen, saw their pain, felt their sorrow, and did what I could to help make them more comfortable. I tried, I really tried. I did my best - but it wasn't good enough. I have so much more to learn, but not this time around.

So many lessons, in so little time. I hope I can figure this out and finish the program. I may be a little slow at learning new things, but then again, I have already learned so much! Perhaps there is a reason for this sudden setback. Like other times in my life when I didn't understand the reason and rhymes of everything, I somehow managed to keep going, like it or not. There must be a lesson to be learned in all this, as difficult as it is not knowing what lies ahead.

Anyway, I hope to find some time to regroup, reorganize, study, focus and thoroughly understand the ins and outs of the many demands in this mightily intriguing profession. The few patients I have met, so far, have already left an unforgettable impression in my now highly matured mind. I would like to thank them, but that is not possible. The only thing I can do now is hope and pray that I get the opportunity to complete this journey, attain my license, and thereafter become the skillful, competent, confident, and compassionate RN I have set my sights on even at this later stage of my life. Merry Christmas everyone, and happy holidays, too!

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ashley10

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Have faith. When one door closes another one opens. You sound like you want to be a nurse badly. It will happen when the time is right. Keep trying one day at a time.

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Specializes in Oncology&Homecare.

Don't ever give up. Dreams do come true but sometimes it takes time. Good luck and keep us posted on your journey.

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Yes, don't give up. If it's what you really want take one step at a time.

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Specializes in Labor/Delivery, Pediatrics, Peds ER.

It's always hard to say why changes and setbacks occur, but they generally have a reason. Maybe time to have not so many irons in the fire, maybe just a little more time to accomplish another necessary goal or have some things a little more settled so you can concentrate on your studies. Maybe something that won't be revealed until many years later which will surprise you with its perfection.

It took me 3 separate entrances. :) The first time my studies were interrupted was a very trying time in my life and I really didn't understand why that had to happen. It took me a while to decide I was ready for another foray, but I was glad that I did. Then an unexpected pregnancy interrupted my studies yet another time - I wasn't allowed to continue until after the delivery of my child.

Three times was a bit much, but it was so worth it! I know now why the first interruption occurred and because of it, my life was wonderfully altered in a very unexpected way. What seemed like a giant setback actually set in motion the circumstances which allowed me to meet my husband of 40+ years. Weeping endures for a night, but joy comes in the morning. :)

It's great that you are willing to look at this as a time with a purpose, even though you don't realize what that purpose is right now. God always has a reason. Your attitude will serve you well while you find your way to your life's purpose. Blessings to you on your journey!

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You have all helped me to feel so much better. Thank you from my heart. One day at a time, I am trying to do my best - one day at a time. So grateful for your kind words...

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Specializes in Peds/Neuro/General Med-Surg/epilepsy.

As cliche as it is "One step at a time." Is the best phrase of encouragement I've ever been given. Seems like it would apply here very well. Keep it up :)

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