Hello all! I haven't posted in a coon's age and here I am crawling back!
I have been very busy. I have moved, separated from hubby and started a new job in NICU. My problem is is I am going nuts. The NICU offers a good orientation and all but I'm growing sick and tired of having someone either a- do it for me or b- telling me to do it their way even when they don't have a clear reason why that way is better. I spend 6 months on medicne and that is constantly being put down. When I ask how is it different then in adults- the answer is 'it is different'. My preceptor just walks in and does my care because she's bored and the next time is grilling me on physiology and patho when I have three babies that all need attention!! The educators say my nursing skills are excellent (which I am proud of, she said I act like I've been nursing for a few years and don't seem like a new grad, that's big compliment in my books) but I have an attitude problem. Which I do because I am a RN - abet a new one but I'm still an RN. I am not a student. If you tell me to do it that way instead of my way, I want to know why. Is it safer? Prevents contamination? To say that's the way I do it, is not acceptable to me. I give them my reasons for the way I do things but I still have to do it the preceptor's or educator's way. I don't want to make enemies. But I'm tired of this, I'm starting to dread going to work. I like this area. I don't mind being watched, I dodn't mind suggestions on how to improve but twll me the reason behind it!!! HELP!! Should I confront my preceptor? Should I live with it? How do I tell her to give me some breathing room? I don't know if this clear but any suggestions would be greatly appreciated!! Thank you again! Tara