love to all of you trying to get off of these kinds of meds!! i wish i could....however, oct 1977, i was stabbed in my back, (literally), knife went into my spinal cord. i had to have expl. surgery to determine the amount of damage, repair my spinal cord, and remove the bone fragments. i was started on pain meds then. then after i was bitten on my paralyzed foot by a poisinous spider i was getting regular refills. i thought 'thank god!!' at the time, that those electrical shock pains wouldnt hurt so bad nemore. then when the darvocet didnt work nemore, they upped it to hydrocodone 5mg's, then 7.5 mg's, then norco, (10mg's of hydrocodone), then oxycontin didnt even phase it, so they put me on 3, 60mg ms contin a day, along with 12 or more norco a day. then they took me off the norco, and put me on str8 morphine...mscontin, and then immediate release morphine for 'break thru pain'. needless to say, i eventually had to take more and more to work. and having to buy whatever i could off the streets to get thru. and eventually, started seeing more than 1 pain doc a month, which is strongly prohibited. i wish i could just say to heck with it, and be done with it, but i do have genuine pain!! so what would i do? kick to start again? so to those of u in a position to just go thru the withdrawls, and be done with it, TAKE IT FROM SOMEONE WHO KNOWS... DO IT!!! IT WILL BE THE MOST INTELLIGENT MOVE OF UR LIFE!! because now, at the levels im on, i cant even go to a hospital. and to get into the methodone clinic here, u have to wait till u r just short of a seizure before they will medicate you. and the nearest clinic to me is more than 3 miles away. now, i live in the country, so its ok for the 1 legged chick taking morphine, (not that i get a 'buzz' anymore), to drive a STANDARD SHIFT vehicle. but how in gods name, can i do it in hard withdrawls? so here i am getting ready to go buy some meds off the street. which sucks, especially on social security!! lol. it is very expensive. and i DO NOT recomend this, because it takes many many years to get as pharmacutically knowledgable as i am, and if u get something yyou arent planning on getting, and dont know it, it could be a death sentance!! u never know what u r getting. but because ive been on so many...just about everything that has been used for more than 5 years or so, anyways, people call me when they cant remember what 'those strange pills that have been in thier med cabinet' are, and with just a good description, i can tell them what they r, mg's, usual prescribed dosage, etc... my point is, no one in a position to get off this stuff should be on it in the first place. the withdrawls are unimaginable!! and to top off my situation, i am now hiv+...what i got for staying home and being a good wife, while my husband was running the streets, but when i begin to die, how on earth will they keep me 'comfortable'?? it isnt LEGAL for them to even give me 1/2 of the meds i give to myself!! i am trying so hard to just take the prescribed amount of medication, but the pain doesnt seem tolerable, because when i have 'plenty of meds' the 'mind thing' kicks in and i think the pain is worse than it really is. well, im off to the city before i completely run out and cant get more than 4 feet from the toilet!! please take some advice from an old woman who has abused everything in life from my body to my meds, if u CAN STOP, STOP!!! i leave this msg in tears, wondering how to deal with this. i am in such pain right now, in my body, my mind, my heart, and my soul. good luck to u all, strong enuf to do this. and pls pray for me that i can find a way to keep my meds to what is prescribed, somehow.
i will chk in tomorrow.