I really, really feel like calling it quits - page 4
This a continuation of my other post. Today I had to meet with my clinical advisor and the instructor afterclass and I was told that I am not to go back to the clinical site on Monday and instead I... Read More
Feb 2, '07I was nearly destroyed my second sememster in nursing school (BSN program); the details are too horrific to recount, having to do with 10-page careplans that were due the next day, thus allowing for 2 hours sleep before the next clinical day - and such things. I waited 18 months (got my CNA and worked in a nursing home in the meantime), but realized that there was nothing else I would rather do. I returned to the program (I had gotten a couple of incompletes, never failing grades) and finished my BSN Magna Cum Laude (3.8 GPA).
Then, I was forced to quit (or else get fired) after 11 weeks in my very first job on an oncology floor by a head nurse from h--- who, among other things, told me I would never make it in acute care - perhaps I might work in a doctor's office - and she would make sure that I would never work in this hospital again*. Need I add I was devastated?
So I went to the other local hospital, did my year in med-surg/PCU and then moved on to outpatient dialysis; my PCU NM was wonderful, and I left for personal reasons. And guess what - I just took a job in the same hospital where I was supposed to never work again, doing acute dialysis (a great job!) The old battle ax got fired long ago.
So you see, you are not alone. If you truly want to be a nurse, don't give up. Many of use have had to put up with nursing instructors, programs, and first jobs from h---, but we made it, and so will you if you really want to.
Wishing you the very best,
*I wasn't any more disorganized than any new grad, especially one who had no preceptor and was basically thrown to the wolves; their idea of "orientation" was increasing the work load each week and letting you figure it out. And if you didn't k--- a--, well...Last edit by DeLana_RN on Feb 3, '07
Feb 2, '07My advice is to get a tutor. They usually have them in the nursing labs. It can't hurt and may help boost your confidence.
Feb 3, '07One thing you may consider doing is to talk with your previous clinical instructor and ask him/her for suggestions for improvement, since that instructor has already seen you perform and may have some advice for you. You may want to tell the old instructor what you have been told now that needs improvement, ask for ways to improve and maybe even just get a vote of confidence that you'll be okay.
When I was in college I almost changed majors thanks to a professor telling me I was doomed to fail. I got a second opinion from a previous professor who knew how I worked and what I could do, and he assured me I would be fine (and that the other professor was pretty snotty, so not to listen to her), and offered suggestions for improvement. I followed his advice and graduated with honors with my degree. I know regular college and nursing school are night and day, but the concept is still the same -- you don't live in a bubble. If you succeeded last semester, surely your instructor had confidence in you and may have advice for ways to improve.