I am a new nurse, and I made my first med error. I gave a pt IGg who wasn't supposed to get it. I did my five rights. I checked the med against my mar. I confirmed right dose right pt right route right time. It was all good. I even called pharmacy!!! I had no idea how to give or titrate this med. I watched my pt carefully. I made sure her pressures etc were all wnl. The problem was that pharmacy had put the med in the wrong patients MAR!!!! the reason I made the error was because I did not look for the original order in the chart. Had I done my chart check like I was supposed to I would have caught it. I didn't. I came in the next day and was told what I had done. fortunately the patient is fine, and she had no ill effects from the drug. But it could have killed her. I could have walked into work and found out that someone was dead because of me. how do you cope with that? how can I go in and not have a panic attack? I am not getting fired although i can't say i would blame them. I am absolutely devastated( i cried nearly all shift) and now I have to go to a root cause multidisciplinary review thing and explain why I am an idiot. how do I explain that?!!! well thanks for listening!!