I feel so bad.

[reddellrn]

this is my situation. I recently left a rehab job due to bad conditions at work, which have recently improved, so im told, i got another job in medsurge at another hospital. I was hired on the spot, that should have been a red flag, anyway ive been there a month. im still in orientation, however i realized medsurg is not for me. i made a mistake. I ve done medsurg before as a new nurse, didnt like it then, dont like it now. but i had decided to try again. shame on me. well i was on medical leave from the rehab job when i got the medsurg job. it didnt occur to me that this could be a problem. they did not tell me that when i resigned. now that i realized medsurg is definatly not for me, i asked for my old job back. the rehab manager said yes but the don and hr told her it was up to her and the only issue is that i left while on eib. that labled me as ineligible for rehire. however the rehab manager dicided to give me another chance, thank god. i only have to fill out a new application, but since it has not been 3 months since i quit, everything would just pick up from when i left, like pto and benifits. Im very happy to have my old job back. The hr director did not look too impressed when i picked up the application. Now i have to tell my boss at the medsurg job. not looking forward to that and scared. i feel like crap and im so guilty, i dont know why i feel this way. im sure she will tear me a new one when i talk to her. I am schelduled to work this weekend, but dont know if i need to put in a 2 wk notice since im still in orientation. i tried to call her early this am but she was not in yet so left a message for her to call me back. well its been 3 hours, no call back, dont even know if shes going to work today. i will get in touch with her today somehow. im just so darn scared and guilty for doing this, but i just cant work medsurge, its too much for me. i am a nervous wreck at work, have so much anxiety about it.

i dont sleep well and dread going to work. does any one have advise on how to tell this manager i quit? i need help. fast.

[germanshep]

I think it is very mature of you to recognize that med/surg is not for you. Good luck!

[reddellrn]

well i called my current manager to tell her i quit, she asked if i would at least work this weekend on nights to see if i like it better, then make a descission. i told her yes ill at least do that. she said it is not as busy on nights, it usually gets quit around 2300, then u have down time to do your work. hope they dont have 8-12 admits at night! she said its better at night. well i will see. there are no unit secretaries at night either. and i will have to be charge and take pts.

[carolmaccas66, BSN, RN]

I left an aged care (dementia) job not long ago. I thought I would try it again, but it wasn't for me.

You have to make yourself happy, not everyone else, and it isn't selfish to feel this way. NMs/any managers are used to people resigning and will not care anyway. All they want to do is fill the place with bodies. I've never felt guilty in any shape or form for resigning anywhere. Tell them in person if possible. My last job I resigned from I just sent an email, and no, I don't think that's inapproriate.

If u don't make yourself happy, you won't be happy in ur life in any aspect. Ur job is a big part of your life too, so start there.