I can't stop thinking about this patient that the doctor failed. - page 2
Heartache...absolute heartache. I won't go into the details due to patient privacy, but yesterday I had the most horrible experience. My patient was being grossly misdiagnosed and being discharged despite my frequent but... Read More
- 4Jan 8, '12 by PMFB-RNKudos to you! Sounds like you did a fine job. Many people scoff when I say that an RNs compensation is way out of wack with our level of responsibility but this story illustrates exactly what I am talking about.
I hope you stay in nursing. Strong patient advocates are exactly what we and our patients need. Too many nurses do nothing more than cover their butt with "the physician is aware" and go back to gossiping or facebooking.
- 7Jan 8, '12 by tokmom, BSNI had a situation like yours, but the outcome wasn't pretty. The pt coded just as extra help had come through the door. He was only there because two of us overode the attending and called the House Super who got the chief of staff involved. I was sick to my stomach. We went from the NM all the way to the chief of staff and it still didn't turn out well. I cried all the way home and couldn't even talk about it for a solid week without bursting into tears.
The good news is the chief of staff changed processes because of us being outspoken.
Gee, I can't really add more. It's all been said. You climbed the food chain. Many nurses are afraid to do so. Keep nursing. We need people like you. You did all you could which was A LOT.
- 2Jan 8, '12 by MomRN0913What you did was beyond commendable. You were n advocate for your patient no matter what it took. You used every resource available. And like another poster said, there would probably have been no hope if you didn't do all of this.
If there wasn't a more nurses like you, there would be much worse outcomes.
- 4Jan 8, '12 by leslie :-Di understand how emotional you're feeling right now - it sounded like a very powerful and primal experience.
i agree, you need to give time a chance, and let things quiet down.
still, i cannot help but feel overwhelmingly proud and impressed by your actions as a nurse and advocate.
it chills me to think what could have happened, had you not stepped up to bat.
wear the badge with pride and honor.
- 2Jan 8, '12 by Esme12, BSN, RN Senior ModeratorQuote from JeneraterRNYou were very brave to take a stand for what you believed to be the right thing. It isn't easy to stick your neck out like that and stand against someone you may ordinarily have great respect for.....and I'll bet you that MD will be grateful you did. You need to give yourself sometime to recover from this ordeal for it would be a great loss to the profession to not have someone like you in it's ranks to care for and advocate for it's patients.Heartache...absolute heartache. I won't go into the details due to patient privacy, but yesterday I had the most horrible experience. My patient was being grossly misdiagnosed and being discharged despite my frequent but respectful objections. The doctor involved was having a terrible situation at home, and my charge nurse and I believed her to be emotionally incapacitated. Our DON was contacted, and the dispute eventually was presented to our CEO. The doctor was replaced and we flew the patient to a specialist. I don't know how she is currently doing, but it was a 12 hour long process to get her there. I fear irreparable damage for her due to the misdiagnosis and delay of treatment. I'm personally a mess from the experience. I can't sleep tonight, and was assured by everyone involved that did the right thing from the start of the shift by being an aggressive patient advocate. I fear for her. The thought that so much hinges on our actions is paralyzing me. I don't want to be a nurse anymore. I don't want to watch people succum to illness, lose their children, or have their lives shattered any more. Kudos to all who can deal with this better than I. May you all find the peace that eludes me.
Nothing really prepares you for these moments in life and nursing school certainly doesn't have a special class on how to handle these situations and recover. You need to decompress and debrief. Maybe talk to someone......these type of situations are very traumatizing. I am sure you are exhausted and need a good nights sleep. I agree that when you look at the ramifications of simple actions .....we certainly aren't paid enough to do this job.
I am proud you believed in yourself and fought for the right thing to be done for that patient.........for what would have happened if you weren't the one taking care of her that day. We can't really change the over all outcomes of our patient...not really....we can change the path they were on to give them a different outcome but we have no control over the final say.
I am not a particularly "Religious person" at least not "formally" like going to church. But I am a firm believer that there is something, someone, somewhere that has a plan. A plan that allow detours and updates depending on the surrounding circumstances but they, it, them.... make the final call. I firmly believe that many times during my career I was place in the position to affect change and for me "God" looked down and thought.....Oh that's Ok Esme's there....she'll make it alright or that he decided he has a better plan, one I am not privy to and takes some patients home to him and knows I am there to pick up the pieces for families to give them peace.
Someday I plan on having an open table discussion with the "Big Guy" to ask why he let me fight so hard to only lose or why did that 8 year old trauma have to die when the 90 yo lived to see another day and why children have cancer but for right now I comfort myself that my presence is valuable to those around me and I have been given this gift to help those most vulnerable in need and I have been given the smarts to affect change. Whether I was climbing in an upside down car to start an IV or to hold someones hand when they were frightened.......I affected and changed their experience to be better.....changed.
I have fought with some MD's in my day, who for whatever reason, weren't making the best decisions that day. I remember a certain surgeon whom I respected and loved that I had a horrible fight with because he insisted he was sober enough to go to the OR. He said such terrible things that day. He was so angry with me and didn't speak to me for quite sometime.....mostly from embarrassment.....one day told me how much he appreciated me that day for not backing down and thanked me for saving that patients life.
You were where you were supposed to be and it will take some time for you to feel better and you will never forget that moment, that patient and that day....but I do promise it will feel better. My prayers for you to find and keep the peace you seek
- 2Jan 8, '12 by ♑ Capricorn ♑@JeneraterRN
You did the right thing and you should be commended for it. Your deed was honorable. You should be proud of yourself instead of beating yourself up inside. I feel bad for you and can understand why honestly. I hope you will decide what is best for you.
- 4Jan 8, '12 by leslie :-DQuote from JeneraterRNi fully believe that...especially that this was divine intervention, and it happens more often than we're aware of.Thank you all for the kind and encouraging words. I've been in a faith limbo lately, but perhaps this is God's way of bringing me back.
i also would like you to read and reread esme's post.
i totally share her beliefs, it makes a whole lot of sense, and it is especially helpful to have faith when 'stuff' happens to which we have no answer.
with esme's example, a child dies...and of course it's natural for us to grieve, shake our fists and demand "WHY???"
with faith intact, i can accept that it was horrible, that someday i will come to understand the "whys", and that perhaps, death isn't the horrific concept it is purported to be (in western society).
i guess what i'm trying to say, is take advantage of this time to peruse/reflect on what happened, and find peace with it.
at some point in your life, most of us grow in such a way where we can truly accept all types of occurrences, as happenstance...
and receive it with the repose, in which it was intended.
let it sink in, the whole sequence of events...
and tell me God's not smiling.