I've been struggling for quite some time.
Do I like what I do? Yes. In fact, most days I love it.
Do I hate my schedule? Sure I do. I hate working weekends and holidays and missing out.
The main issue is my boyfriend, who I now live with. I get guilt tripped for missing things on weekends. I constantly have his mother trying to get me to switch shifts for family events. They think I can just say "nah, don't feel like working this weekend." It's stressful.
Another thing, lately our census has been low so they've been calling off nurses. I pretty much always accept it. It's not affecting our vacations, it's not affecting my pay drastically. I get the guilt trip from the boyfriend. He acts angry and then tells me he's jealous I'm off and he's going to work.
I feel like it's lose-lose. I've seriously considered getting an office job or otherwise, just to get rid of the scheduling conflicts. This major issue has been getting in the way of my love for nursing.
How do you all deal? How do you keep the positive thinking going about your job when there's negativity nagging at you?