My heart goes out to you! It feels absolutely horrifying to be told you are HIV positive! I have an idea of what you are going through because 5 years ago after donating blood I got a very abrupt letter from the blood bank, asking me to "come in for a meeting." :-( They told me my blood was reactive for HIV, but the test was "indeterminate." I felt like my life was over! I was only 25 years old! I remember breaking down sobbing in the blood bank office when they gave me the news.
They told me I needed the Western Blot test to confirm, but the results took a long time in coming (I forget if it was a few days or over a week, but it felt like forever). In the meanwhile, my boyfriend at the time (now my husband) and I had long talks and spent a good deal of time calling some AIDS hotlines. We felt confused, alone, and scared.
Fortunely for us, my boyfriend's subsequent tests came back negative & my test was found to be a false positive (I had never heard of that before).However, for a week or so, all I knew was that I might be HIV +, so I have an idea of how upsetting it feels.
Please know that there are people who do care about you & those who can help you in this terrible time! I am posting a link to the CDC HIV Prevention page, which has a FAQs area, and lists suggested post exposure prophylaxis, tx, etc.
****You can call the CDC 24 hour/7 day per week HIV hotline and talk to a live person and get some help: 1-800-342-AIDS ********
Here's a web page of an HIV+ nurse, it has some great links & support info: http://members.tripod.com/~Kenna77/
I am so sorry to hear of your rough situation! But there is help out there- and please take care of yourself both in spirit and body. Take time off from work if you need to, and get your questions answered. There are many people living w/ HIV, many of whom are wonderful, loving people like yourself. As previous posters commented, there are support groups, too. I will keep you & your family in my prayers!
[This message has been edited by kona2 (edited April 26, 2001).]