Have mercy on me, I am supposed to be the strong one

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This is not a Nursing issue, but I had a very bad night tonight. First I get to work and get a phone call about 1930 from my husband that my Mare is in foal and something is wrong. I've had her 19years and so I'm upset.I tell him to call a vet, I'm at work, can't leave, I AM the relief help. Second phone call , she's down and it's bad, he needs help. I can't leave, no way. I call my daughter, she goes over to my house and calls me, it's very bad. Fortunately, by this time another unit is now over staffed, thanks to 2 codes that went bad, Would I like to go home? Not really, but I love my horse and she's dying. I go home, I get here and find out my husband has been calling the same vet, over and over. I try a new one I've never used, and will from now on, he comes over. The Mare is in a bad way. I'm a Nurse, I got a strong stomach, Right? Evidentally not. He says he has to cut the foals head off , it's dead and stuck , the mare will die if he doesn't. My husband holds her head, the vet hold the metal rod in her lady parts, and I have to pull the wire back and forth until it cuts off the head. I am sick, sick, sick. Then we have to pull out the rest of the poor little thing. My mare may die anyway, it's too soon to tell. I can't get the decapitated baby out of my mind. I'm a Nurse, I'm supposed to be strong, but not this! I pray to God I will forget. I am heart broken and I have to tell the kids when they get up. I'm not telling them about the head, I can't. I don't know what I'll tell them if the mare dies. I'm just sick.Thanks for letting me vent.

Specializes in Mostly LTC, some acute and some ER,.

Cat, just because your a nurse does not mean that you always have to be the strong one. You are human. You, your family, and Khaia are in my prayrs.

i grew up with horses(although we only had one give birth and i guess everything went fine-i was i kid then)and after i had moved away my mom and dad kept them in the pasture(farm area) and checked/fed them daily. i remember her calling me to tell me when our "sonny" died. she was so upset. she had driven to the pasture and seen him standing by the tank. he was really old(for a horse-can't remember exactly but he was past 30 which is very unusual).also, this horse had foundered way back when he was young. he had originally been my dads horse. when he foundered, my mom took him as her own, walked him daily in the creek, etc.. he got over it completely and was able to run and everthing. the vet had said he never would. anyways, she drove on down to the bottom of the pasture to take care of some things and was there for several hours. when she came back, he was dead. she did at least feel good that he had not suffered. he had gone quickly. prior to this, our shetland had died at the pasture while noone was there and she said she saw marks in the dirt that he had made while laying there. she was so sick that she was not there. you can only do the best you can. i guess i got my love for animals from my mom. once, n my hamster quit eating and was losing weight. she took it to the vet. they said it's teeth had grown too long. she said even though she thought the vet was a jerk to her she felt he was a good doc. she said she sat and cried while they filed the teeth down. after that, she said the vet and assistant treated her nicer--like they thought they better-she must be crazy.

My thoughts and prayers are with you and yours. I admire your courage and the love that you show.

I wanted you update all you fine people. Khaia is still alive, still hasn't passed the afterbirth and I am calling the vet this am. But the good news is that she is passing stool, urinating, and eatting. If we can just get her cleaned out , and she doesn't get an infection, I think she'll live. I have hope for the first time in days...Cat

Great news Cat !! I've been following your story and hoping for the BEST !

Keep us posted.

mkue

Good news that your friend Khaia is doing better--please keep us updated. Sending positive thoughts to Khaia and you.

God bless :kiss

Specializes in Med-Surg, Trauma, Ortho, Neuro, Cardiac.

Hugs to you. I'm glad she seems to be doing better. Poor sweetie.

How wonderful ! I am soooooo glad she is better.

great news. hope all continues to go well.

I called the vet, Khaia finally passed the placenta. I am to continue giving the antibiotics and barring any unforseen complications(like a massive infection), she looks like she is going to be ok. I am so happy and thank all of you from the depths of my heart for your caring and support. I love this place!...Cat

happy dance!:)

Specializes in Hospice, Critical Care.

Whew. I sighed an audible breath of relief when I read your post "I have hope for the first time..." What an ordeal!! Your horse is your family; of course you would react differently than you would with a patient! Thank God you are per diem and can tell work to just *wait*!

Thanks for keeping us posted. Prayers for you and your horse!

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