Three of my residents died today...one on day shift, two on my shift. 3 men, 3 totally different deaths..
#1 last night was sitting up and talking...*very* unusual for him. Kept talking about "the kids in the window", and I started getting a "feeling". I asked him what he saw and he said there were kids, a fence that curved and the kids could go from one side to the other, but couldn't come back. I told the other nurse I was working with that something was going on. Come in for my shift at 3, and find out he had been sitting by the desk around lunch time, had a "seizure" and was gone...
#2 just sort of "declined" over the past couple of days. Didn't eat anything at all yesterday, began having periods of apnea. His wife is a bitty thing, can't weigh more than about 95 lbs, would come on every day and feed him lunch and supper..never a complaint out of her mouth, either. She'd drag his geri chair around to get him where she wanted him to be. She was a RN ... I Checked on him at 1845, charted, CNA changed and turned him at 1930 and as I was passing meds at 2015 I checked on him, and he was gone.
#3..sour old cuss of a guy..fought every step of the way while CHF and renal failure fought back. I've never seen edema like he had..from feet all the way up to shoulders and head. Family <esp daughter> all but denial til the end, wanting us to "give him more lasix" and to fix him. A couple of days ago his daughter asked "Why is he breathing like that" and I very gently said "He's dying" She looked at me, and I think it finally hit her exactly what was happening...
I'm drained tonight, and very grateful I have tomorrow (today)off... Got home about 2 AM, grabbed a bite to eat, and then logged on
Nice to have a support system here...thanks all y'all!
Thanks for listening
edited for typos