Worked in Tele for just over 90 days, then fired!
I am not looking to vent or to cry on an unseen shoulder here, I hope to hear from others
who were in a similar situation who overcame a similar situation, I need inspiration and hope!
I'm in my second career now, working as RN short little jobs here since passing NCLEX
last year... minor jobs and there, finally landed new grad position at a hospital, on Tele,
orientation went rocky from the start, old preceptor nurse who would disappear to do
favors for others on all floors, and constantly going out for smokes.
She refused to let me see my orientation packet/ sign off sheets, I had no idea what my
goals were and got very little feeedback. Her favorite thing to do was to loudly proclaim
anything I forgot or anything she had do for me, making it look like I was such a loser.
I noticed people distancing themselves from me.
When I was assigned another preceptor I was so happy but by then I was so behind
compared to the others and then went on my own earlier than I was ready. I
communicated this fact but it was sink or swim. I was slow but careful... One night I
forgot a med and was written up. And then another time I charted "missing med."
I got bogged down in other things going on, and completely forgot to go to pharmacy or
follow up on this missing med (an inhaler) and my charge told me about it, I asked what
now, the night is halfway through, she said "Don't worry about it now."
"It can wait until the AM."
I was fired the next day.
Now I am so devistated I can't think straight. I am mortified and ashamed, I live
in a large metro area that pumps out new grads from more than 6 different shcools and
it's so competitive I don't know how in the world I will recover with a "Discharge" on
record. I'm not eligible for rehire, and many appications online require me to state if I am,
so I know I will end up not getting as far as an interview.
I saw this coming early on because that old hag preceptor has a lot of power, and early on
the supervisor had a sit- down with me and another charge RN, I was honest but
I could tell they were setting me up for being fired. My union rep said they can fire
me for anything during probation, but they created a paper trail on me about not getting
charting done by a specified time (Mind you, no one gets 100% of their charting done by
22:00 there, but I was required to, or get fired!) if I were dishonest and charted "Patient
refused med" I might still have a job! But then I would have been fired for something
else. I asked different RNs about their time mgmt tricks, I know that I was getting it..
But not fast enough.
I know now that this job was not a good fit for me, I am owning my mistakes and feel
good about loving the work, doing a great job (got "Above average/ exceeds
expectations" on customer service). I feel good about not making any major errors or
causing any near misses, any harm.
I feel good about everything I learned, but I feel really bad about how everyone
there knows how I was struggling with time management and I am so mortified now
to know that 20+ people there at my former workplace who worked w/ me
know I was fired.
I was not there long enough to make any friends and get any good referrals. I don't know
where to go from "Here?" Pure Hell.
I feel good about being able to think critically and plan ahead for my patients, like calling
the Dr. and getting unnecessary "NPO" status removed right away on a diabetic patient
that had surgery cancelled and then suffered with "NPO" for 18+ hrs., the previous RNs
I was so successful in my past life, different career, I always wanted to be a RN,
got great grades in school, my friends from school are doing great, I live in fear they
will find out about my current situation. I am so ashamed!
Plus I need to work.
I am paralyzed by this. The union rep said orientees/ new grads get fired all the time
during probation and they pick up themselves and move on, they get jobs, I asked
"HOW?" She was not willing to give details.
I am older, I look good, stay in shape, I am older though, and it does work against me for
getting interviews, I noticed. I'm 53, I look like I'm late 40's. But they know, when they
look at my app, how old I am. Last year I interviewed for new grad program at a large
hospital and was shocked to see I was the only "older" one in the room, everyone
seemed to be 30 yrs old and younger (30 people). Did not get the job.
Has anyone out there been through a similar situation? I am not a new grad with 90 days
of work in Tele, and I am not a nurse with 1 yr experience, so I am stuck in between a
rock and an impossible place. Even the SNFs here require 1 yr experience! I can't move,
out of the area, due to hubby job. I just need to hear about similar experiences, hopefully
do what you all did, to go get another job at a hospital or somewhere.
Please be kind to reply.
Thank you, and God Bless.