So,i am a male nursing assisstant. I am young and started when I was eighteen years old. While I was a teenager, I was always on drugs or drinking, finding some way to escape my boring life of annoying parents. Anyway,i grew up with my mom working in healthcare,i was a stubborn,depressed,anxious guy who grew up around the wrong crowd of people. When I turned 16, years old, my parents made me get a job so I started working where my mother worked in a family owned nursing home. I worked in the kitchen and housekeeping literally hating my job but I worked to support my unhealthy habits. Not to get too off topic but I went to juvenile jail and states custody because of underage DUIs ,underage consumption. So I turn 18 years old, I'm on top of the world, I literally know everything. I move out of my mom's house and move into a drug dealers house who is friends with my high school friends. I get fired from my job. I'm at rock bottom so I start selling drugs for a while, then I become desperate and call the owner of the nursing home, she tells me I can come back to work after I take a drug test and take CNA classes. From there I am homeless for about a month, I finally decide my mom's house isn't so bad. I decide it's time to stop smoking pot and popping pills and I buzz my hair off. After all of this I give my life to the Lord and put my everything in being this nursing assistant which just seems like the craziest job. As a new employee in this field, I started out on the Alzheimer's hallway which i felt more comfortable on.I started praying alot and realizing how fulfilling it is to take are of people who can't take care of themselves. It started to make me realize how good I really have it. As about two years go by I come very close friends with alot of coworkers but I still feel very different. It's not like in feel better than everybody but I feel like I can't let my body rest unless my patients are given PERFECT care. I struggle with anxiety and obsessive compulsive disorder also. By the time I turn 20, I'm becoming not a good but a great CNA. I literally am putting everything into this job. I feel guilty about everything bad I've done and I feel like this job is me giving back to God for the stupid things I have done in life.I am 21 now and I work up to 14 hours,sometimes 16 hours five days a week.i wake up at four o'clock in the morning and have almost all patients in their right mind. I have to say it has literally changed my life completely, at the moment I am not even worried about college. I am obsessed with giving my patients the best care possible. I stay up thinking about what I can do differently to make their life more enjoyable while spending their retirement home in what I like to call a retirement prison. Imagine spending your golden years being asked if you have used the bathroom on yourself. It is just so sad.What I'm trying to say is being in the healthcare field has literally changed my life and turned me into a Christian. Seeing dying people praying kind of changes the way I think about things. Any starting CNA who reads this, just know this job is not for everyone. If you love to take care of someone more than yourself,if you will risk your own health to help others stay healthy. If you love to see someone smile just because your taking care of them or if you have a family member say they don't have to worry because you'll be taking care of their mother or father, than you are made fore the healthcare field. I hope someone reads this and gets inspired. I know I wouldn't have gotten my faith back with this job.