I'm a new nurse and I do have a job so I'm thankful but I am very unhappy with it. Was fully stressed to the max, my blood sugar was super high some days, I cried before going in, diarhea, upset stomach, trouble sleeping, etc. so I asked to be switched to a non critical care unit and I'm awaiting the change now. In the meantime I have applied to jobs closer to home (I have to travel a bit to get to work now) and I'm not getting anywhere. I'm assuming its because I'm a new grad still and I've missed the window of opportunity for new grads now.
So does this mean I have to stay in a place I don't like, because even though I will be switching units, I really don't like the long travel but at the time when I was offered the job I thought it was only 3 - 12 hour shifts but now after I've been there I've discovered its some 12's some 8's etc. so you are traveling a lot more than I thought I would be. Plus I really would like to work closer to home in case of an emergency I would be closer to my family (husband and son).
I feel like a failure. I'm begining to doubt if nursing was the right career for me (second career choice). If I will ever like what I do or if its just where I am. I know that I don't want to be in the hospital for the whole of my nursing career but from what I've seen and read you can't get anywhere as a nurse without at least 1-2 years of hospital bedside experience. So I'm trying to at least find a field that I like while I am doing that but its hard. I'm basically stuck. I feel like I've made a huge mistake by jumping into what I did right after graduation and now nobody else will give me a chance. I graduated with honors, I was a good student and have always been a good employee but now on this new venture I am getting nowhere.
I see so many people say they hate nursing and some that say they love it. When do you know? I tell you, most of the people I see at work look like they "have" to be there, not like the love what they do? I know all careers have their ups and downs but I just figured there would be some positive influence.
It's all kinds of stuff but right now I feel constantly depressed, worried about finances and about letting down my family and friends and myself. Please share with me your experiences about nursing if you felt like it wasn't for you at first and then grew to love it later? I'm assuming I just haven't found my niche...and I've only just begun - been a nurse for three months.
Hey I was in the same position you are, I am sure you have seen my posts, lol. Right now I think IS an akward time for hiring so don't let it get you down. Remember, applying and being rejected is also a blow to your self esteem! I found leaving my first job didn't really help much in the "improve my confidence and feel better" department. Then I just worried about money, why no one wanted to hire me, was I forgetting my skills, did I make the right decision, and WHAT WAS WRONG WITH ME? LOL. Don't let that happen to you.
If you truly want to find another job because you want to work closer to home and you don't like going in more than 3 days per week then I would by all means keep applying. If you are trying to spin your wheels and find a 'new start' hoping that once you make a change stuff will be better, maybe reconsider. I think so many of us new grads are so stressed that we will do anything to make that stress go away. You will have the same stress at the new job. Is it a different specialty?
You see what I am getting at? You are almost half a year in, that is a major accomplishment! Pat yourself on the back and realize YOU ARE DEALING!:spin: I think those of us that get intense anxiety need to be able to recognize when IT IS THE ANXIETY TALKING and just mentally say, "SHUT UP". LOL. I know that is the case for me. I, for one, plan to make a 3x5 card with all the reasons I AM doing this (nursing) and going through all this stress and I am going to keep it in my pocket and read it when I freak out. That is the best I can do.
GOOD LUCK TO YOU!
Last edit by Curious1alwys on Oct 29, '07
Oct 30, '07
by Medsport, LPN
Well, I've had 7 interviews and still no job. I'm starting to think there is either something in my background (such as being fired once), a bad reference, or maybe just bad interview skills as I'm not good with "small talk" and very quiet. I did have 2 offers, but 1 was about 6 weeks ago and I heard it was not a good place to work as they overwork you. The other is still up in the air, but she won't return my calls. Another place said they would hire me under contingency, but that was about a month ago and I still have'nt turned in the application. Its going on 3 months since I got my license and now they are starting to ask why I have'nt been working yet.
Last edit by Medsport on Oct 30, '07