Ok, so here it is...AGAIN!!! (I say again because so many of us have posted a message about feeling inadequate and not getting what we think we should from our 1st positions. So, here's another.
Since becoming a nurse in July, my 93 year old grandmother has had pneumonia twice, ended up in a rehab facility due to inability to complete ADL's herself (my mother can't handle her alone), now my grandmother has bronchitis. Then my mom has had 2 bouts with bronchitis, and now they think it is a sinus drainage problem which they are trying to make explaina chronis barking cough she can't get rid of. On top of that, I just seem to dread going to work with each passing day, hoping for something (anything) to come up which will give me a reason not to go to work. I have had co-workers (fellow new nurses) sya to me, "just endure until we reach a year, then we can move on". It is sad when every new nurse that has started since June all feel the same way (get the year and leave). I have even had some seasoned nurses tell me the same thing (and I haven't said anything to them).
I used to want to go to work to be a fabulous nurse, but when I saw that in reality I can't be the nurse I know I'm capable of being due to the demands placed on the individual bedside nurses. Then I would go to work because I worked with great people, and though that has changed a bit...some are still fabulous. Now that is not even enough to get me out of bed. I just don't want to be there anymore. I like being a nurse, I just don't like the nursing I have been doing.
Feb 13, '07
There are many areas in nursing you can explore! Many places like to hire nurses that have a few years of med- surg however some places have a preceptor program that is good for new nurses. With the nursing shortage sometimes facilities tend to throw a new grad in the lion's den. Find a fellow seasoned nurse, with a positive attitude, that can help you manage your time, organize your shift. the first couple of years are challenging, if you made it through nursing school you can make it on the floor. Get some floor time, then you can explore all the areas of nursing that are available. Take care of yourself on your days off!
Last edit by mysfit5 on Feb 13, '07
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Feb 13, '07
I just wish I could feel better about what I'm doing.
I have had to use most of my PTO days for the illnesses of my mom and my grandmother, and one for me being sick, and one today because in the Midwest we have been buried under snow (but nothing like New York).
I am concerned that my attendance record is being frowned upon, especially since I have only been there 7 months. But what can I do? Those with children have had to call off alot due to the season and weather. I have never called off this much. On my last job of 4 years, I maybe called off 6 times completely! ANd in 7 months I have called off 7 or 8 times. This is so crazy.
As for a vacation, I have one PTO day left on the books. I'm desperate for time off...no family, no job, no thinking!! But won't happen soon, I'm afraid.
Last edit by Diva Nurse Dani on Feb 13, '07