I had both my sons at home attended by a CNM who has never had children. There was never a question in my mind about her ability as a midwife.
This woman CHANGED MY LIFE!
Having a homebirth with a CNM forces you to take responsibility for your health, both mental and physical. My midwife jolted me into a way of thinking/eating/exercising/managing stress and illness, that sustains me and my family to this day (16 years after the birth of my first son).
I realize your post is a bit old (I am a nursing student new to this forum) but I just want to encourage you to be what you want to be, and be it completely!
Whenever I would go for my prenatals and walk into my CNM's office and see the walls covered in snapshots of smiling babies and families that she delivered into this world (she has done home birth for over 20 years now!!) I would just look at her and think wow she is the spiritual mother to all these families! Seriously. I hope you become a CNM - you will have the power to change lives (now that's a MOTHER of a job!!!) She still does all my well-woman gynecology and I really look forward to those pap smears because I love seeing her! The new photos of tiny newborns keep appearing on the walls every year. What an amazing, important life this Nurse-Midwife has had.
I wish you all the best - do not doubt yourself!
"Our doubts are traitors
And make us lose the good we oft might win
by fearing to attempt"
Shakespeare "Measure for Measure"