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This is my first post. In May I was reported to the board for being impaired at work. I wasn't, but in going through the process of being evaluated, I was diagnosed as bi polar. I was reported to the board originally and they didn't just turn me over to IPN they suspended my license (never failed a drug test, no missing meds, just vague I was acting "funny). Because of all the people that shared their stories here and the advice that is given I knew to get an attorney ( I did and the suspension was lifted), to contact the IPN and go through their process and be willing to sign a contract. I have started my contract, and I don't have narcotic restrictions or anything, but I am on probation with the board for 1 yr. They don't trust the IPN to monitor my mental health, they felt IPN is more for addiction. (Sigh, it's their program/people but they don't trust them?). As this was all going on (and the board person I dealt with was just like all "you people" shouldn't be nurses and she just knew anyone who gets reported is an addict, etc), I didn't have anyone who had been through this to talk to, and the shame was overwhelming. But I found this site and it saved me. I knew I could get through this and come out a better nurse and better person. And I like my therapist and it's really helping. I have a 2 year contract but I'm back to work Monday (after 4/12 months off).. So I promised that when I made it through I would post and let anyone who is discouraged and feels like their world is crashing down, you can do it and get through it. And you will get a job. Just believe in your higher power and keep your chin up. It happened, it sucked really really bad, but I'm coming out on the other side stronger. Bless all of you!!!

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Specializes in HH, SNF, LTC, Hospital.

Thanks so much for your post. This is just proof that one not need be an addict or alcoholic to need a Higher Power...or each other. Recovery has taught me that burdens are lightened when shared, and good things are multiplied!!!

Let's make the world a better place, one Nurse (or in my case, CNA) @ a time.

Be blessed :)

~Shugg:yeah:

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Specializes in Peds/outpatient FP,derm,allergy/private duty.

Boj9,

Thank you so much for sharing your experience with us. It is sometimes just a huge relief to know that someone else has gone through a similar experiences to ours.

I'm glad you were able to actually USE the advice you were given and it resulted in a more positive outcome. Even if that Board person you dealt with wasn't exactly a gem.:)

You've had it rough, and you came through in one piece, with a great attitude towards the future!! More blessings to you! :redpinkhe

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Specializes in ER, TRAUMA, MED-SURG.

Boj9 - I am SO glad to hear from you, and so very happy that your situation worked out so well!! That is great! I have also found such relief and peace talking to others on this forum.

I live in Louisiana, and in 1999 I got reported to our state BON. I have been in recovery since August 16th of 1999. Sometimes I can't believe it's been 10 years, but I would not want to keep on living my old lifestyle - it was SO destructive. It just took some time to realize it.

Again, congrats on your news. That is just wonderful! Just keep in mind, we are all here when you need us, or just want to share.

Anne, RNC :yeah::yeah:

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Specializes in Telemetry.

Thank you Thank you. I so needed to read this story. I do not have an issue with etoh or drugs but I did commit a misdemeanor crime in 2006. Error in judgment and a pack mentality but I take full responsibility. The BRN placed my license on probation with no restrictions on practice. I haven't worked in 3 mos and tomorrow I have an interview and I'm petrified. i have to bring up my probation status and I'm just loss and feel like my career world will never be the same. Your post gave me hope and i knbow I just need to hang in there and realize that when a door closes a window opens.

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Wade, I know how you feel, more than you know!! I was TERRIFIED to go to an interview, but I looked at the advice on how to handle it from past posts and applied it. After you get a feel for the person, find a way to introduce it "I just want to let you know ...", and then explain your situation, but keep it short and sweet. Stress that your telling them upfront because you want to be honest, and let them know you take responsibility, and whatever else applies (in my case, I'm going to therapy and I intend to keep going). Your career can recover, and so can you. It's not that you can't ever get a job again, it's just the FIRST job that might be tough. Other people have gotten hired with their license on probation and so can you. Let them know you learned from this situation and all your other positive qualities that will make you a good employee. Believe in yourself and keep your head high, your second chance will happen.!! GOOD LUCK AND I'LL KEEP YOU IN MY PRAYERS

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Specializes in Telemetry.

Thank you for your kind words and good advice. I will take it all in. I have prepared myself with the typical interview questions, checked out the website, mission statement etc. Got the suit and tie, haircut. Now I will just let go and let God. I will keep everyone informed.

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Specializes in Med-Surg, Trauma, Ortho, Neuro, Cardiac.

Thanks for sharing! Such an inspiring story. Best of luck in all that you do!!!

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Specializes in Telemetry.

Follow Up- Well I had my interview a few weeks ago. I didnt get the job but the interview was successful for me because it was the first time I had to tell a potential employer that my license was on probation. Guess what..the Earth didn't open up and swallow me. I still plowing along looking for work but I am more hopeful and I know that I am not the only one in this situation. This forum has given me a lot of support and I thank you all. I will keep you posted.

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Specializes in Peds/outpatient FP,derm,allergy/private duty.

That's great news, thanks for updating! You've passed a huge mental and emotional hurdle in having the courage to do it for the first time. If you continue to put yourself out there, stick to whatever program is working for you, and are as sincere and pleasant as you seem to be, I think you'll find the job that is the right fit for you!

:up:

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Specializes in Telemetry.

Well several months have passed and I'm still unemployed. I havent had any interviews, the market is very tough here in the bay area but just received a call for an interview this week. Again please send your positive vibes and any helpful advice you may have

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Specializes in Peds/outpatient FP,derm,allergy/private duty.

I haven't seen a job market this bad since I got my license in 1976. The idea of a "glut" of nurses looking for jobs-- total cognitive dissonance! I think it's safe to assume that a lot of the difficulty is related to that as much as your contract status. There are lots of threads here about general job-search strategies. Sending positive vibes your way, Wade!! :up:

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