Why can't I let go?

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I recently graduated with a BSN, passed NCLEX and got hired for my first nursing job. I'm absolutely thrilled to be beginning my career, after a long college career. However, I'm having trouble quitting my grocery store job. It must sound so silly! I've learned that I'm very loyal and it seems that almost anytime quitting is involved, it had a negative undertones to me. I've held this job, at 4 different locations, for nine years--during high school, my first college degree and my nursing degree. The company, in general, has been very good to me. I said to myself, "When I get my hospital schedule, I'll quit." There's no need to put in a two weeks notice since they've known I would be getting a job and since there was an entire month between the day I was hired and went to orientation (this week). So, I got my schedule on Wednesday and still haven't given them a "last day." The scheduler texted me a while ago and I called her back, intending on telling her that July 4th would be my last day. Didn't happen. For a while, I considered staying and then I remembered that I'm charged $14 weekly for insurance. I wouldn't be able to cancel it and would be paying for it until January, if I stayed. I KNOW I need to quit, I'm just having a hard time saying goodbye. Comments/suggestions? I pride myself on my loyalty but even I know this is extreme...

I think I understand where you are coming from. I am currently picking up shifts left and right at a job that I both love and feel I am ready to move on from, and am trying to scrape pennies to make minor improvements to my first house (which I bought when I was 21 and engaged; I'm now 30 and divorced) to try to sell it in a crappy market so I can move and start the nursing program in September that I *finally* got into.

I have mixed feelings... I curse that darned house that feels like a potential money pit, I get frustrated at my lack of skill usage at work, I daydream about moving forward from both.. but I think I'm gonna cry my eyes out when the big change time comes.

I don't know if you like country music, but if you do, check out Trace Adkins' "You're Gonna Miss This". :heartbeat

Ok, no, I'm not really into country music but I am into anything that has meaning. So, I just cried my eyes out to my new favorite song, "You're Gonna Miss This". :crying2: Therapeutic for me, though. :redbeathe

Specializes in Operating Room.

Your first year as a nurse can take a lot out of you- I wouldn't work two jobs if I could help it. All of your focus needs to be on this nursing job.

I know it can be hard to say goodbye, but why make things harder on yourself?

Good luck with your new job!!:):nurse:

I finally quit. It might sound crazy but I'm glad I waited til I was ready to do it to actually do it. :)

Oh, and I cried about my old car when I had to get a new one, just as predicted...

I'm overly symbolic, maybe. :redbeathe

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