I am almost done with school and having to force myself to finish. Its not the patients. Its not even the administration from what I can see. It is the other nurses. Tonight I had a clinical from h*ll. I had an admission who was very unsteady on his feet, confused and trying to escape! I will leave it at that but you get the picture. I did all the appropriate interventions but still spent an unbelievable amount of time with him while I am trying to take care of a other patients with treatments, meds etc. I got behind and it was my fault for not "prioritizing". I was advised that you can't spend so much time with one patient. So should I have let him fall and break his hip?
Now if I was the "real" nurse I would have the whole wing. There was really not much safe about this for him or for whoever was carrying for him but you know you hear about it all the time. It was just the first time it happened to me. I can't imagine myself working in these condtions as i suspect i would just be told I didn't have good time management, or "needed to prioritize". I don't understand how or why many of you seem to keep blaming each other or putting each other down for workloads that are not manageable. I mean even daycare moms are limited on the number of kids they can watch especially how many infants (their total care) they can watch. Knowing I can actually be sued if the guy hurts himself and that it would be my fault even thought there is no way to physically watch someone like this, it is mind boggling. Knowing that most my nurse collegues agree with this is way beyond mind boggling.
I am starting to think it is because so many are codependent in this profession and codependent people tend to want to control and take responsiblity for everything and everybody. Any thoughts on that. I am beginning to feel that there may be no point in someone that is not codependent doing bedside nursing. Everywhere I have been I hearing nurses blaming themselves from things that are not their fault and taking responsibiltiy for other peoples mistakes and then belittling those that don"t do then same. Some people nurses are nice but from what
i have seen there are still plenty of them out there muching on thier young for sport. Sorry but it is crazy stuff!