Now is a really weird time for me in school. Now that we are so close to the end of the nursing program here the pressure is on BIG TIME. People are failing the pathophysiology theory exams left and right and they already know they are not going to pass the class. A few people that I used to hang with are now throwing down attitude and not talking to me because I am passing and they are not.
Quite a few people also failed the last math and pharm exams. We are not allowed to pass meds in clinical if we fail a math exam, so those who did not pass have been suspended from clinical for 2 days until they re-take the math. If they fail again they will be withdrawn from both the lecture class and the clinical and they cannot continue in any nursing course until they do math remedials which is really a semester of algebra, prevention of medication errors, safe patient care, and some other bulls*it classes. Based on the level of difficulty of these math problems, I think some people already figure they are not going to pass that either. I prepared really hard for this math exam and I passed it with 100%. That's the very first time I ever passed a math exam with 100%, and I was feeling really good about it but there were a few people who were VERY unhappy about the fact that I passed and they did not.
One guy who used to be a very good friend and study partner of mine just got booted out of the program last week for failing a pre-clinical drug test earlier in the semester. He had taken up with some paramedic dude who's a drinker and a pothead, and they were both expelled when all that crap they're smoking and snorting showed up in their drug test. They say it was unfair that they were thrown out, and they're upset that I don't agree that they should smoke be able to take drugs and then show up for clinical the next day to do patient care---just because I'm their buddy. Please! We all had to do the drug test, and why should I feel guilty for their decision to use?
I've gotten to the point where I'm not enjoying nursing school anymore. It used to be interesting but now everyone is all burnt-out and grouchy and nasty. Not that the stress isn't getting to me, too. But I suppose another way of looking at it is that most of us probably won't be seeing each other again after the program ends, and maybe its just time for these some of these 'friendships' to end.
I don't know if anyone else is experiencing these things. Sorry to go on, but I needed to get this out.
