So the theme of my sobriety journey has been achieving some sort of overall health. I am 5'4" and was probably 140-145 lbs a few months into sobriety between my psychotropic medications, rehab/psychward food, and intense sugar cravings.I got my goal weight of 110 lbs just the other day. Made a big post on FB about it, even, talking about how I had worked hard to lose weight in a healthy way despite my history of anorexia in my teens and early twenties.Of course, there's that voice in the back of my head: I could lose another 5 lbs and no one would notice. I've eaten too much, I bet I could puke it up without my husband noticing. I'll get down to 100 lbs and then stop losing weight.(If I hide this vodka in my purse, no one will notice. My husband is busy in the other room, better drink this as fast as I can. I'll stop drinking tomorrow. Sound familiar?)I am in great health at the moment. Probably the best health of my life. I am also not drinking nor do I desire to drink. My moods are mostly stable even though I am not taking any medications at the moment. I exercise, strive to not over or under sleep, am mindful of what I put in my mouth, am not engaging in any overly self-destructive behaviors, not isolating, communicating with my husband, etc. But I am not happy with myself. I am also not under the illusion that being skinnier will make me happy with myself, at all. So I have a unhealthy thought and a healthy thought competing for the same space in my brain.I've had this battle a lot over the years and have talked with quite a few therapists. The usual exercise to write down what *I* think healthy is and how I can achieve those goals. The more I do this exercise, the more I start to detest the idea that health exists purely in black or white.But I am curious what others have to say. What is your definition of health?